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my boyfriends friends want to go to the beach on tuesday 😫 im going to b¥rn

save me

bf and I are going to a different city tmr tho so I won’t have to wait until the late evening to eat 🙏🏻 I get incredibly grumpy and it’s so hard to pretend to be happy around his family

I hate that my bfs family eats late 💀 I usually have dinner at 6 while they eat at 8-9 ish likeeee???

I’m not trying to quit I’m just on vacation and don’t want nicotine to ruin it since I’m not super addicted lol

I thought I was the only one 😭 last night was HELLL

SARAAHHH YOURE SO GORGEOUS!!! HEART EYES!!

no lol

just came out of the pool again and I’m so hungryyyyy 😫 I had a bit of focaccia but I’m still ⭐️ving

I fell asleep with siberia once and then stained the mattress (airbnb btw) didn’t end nice

I haven’t smoked a cig in 2 days and I’m slowly starting to miss it 🫠 at least snus is a thing here lollll

I went swimming and I’m so tired now

they boiled some veggies just for me, I don’t deserve them 💔

Tessin

soo we’re having lunch with the fam and idk when that’ll be and I’m hungry already 😫 but I don’t want to have breakfast bc they only have high carb food AND I CANTTT

dunno if i miscalculated but i had around 1k calories in total today? around 500-600cals for breakfast and 400-500cals for dinner

a woman in a black dress is standing in front of a white wall holding a cigarette . ALT: a woman in a black dress is standing in front of a white wall holding a cigarette .

my boyfriends aunt told me I look skinnier today

polyps can form in the gallbladder ???

we‘re having pizza tonight 💔 i skipped lunch tho so I shouldn’t gain weight at least

schweiz 😋

Flying out in a sec so I won’t be able to weigh myself for the next 2 weeks. also I have no clue how I’m supposed to starve when my bfs family is around :/

okay last weight update is 53.3kgs bc I maintained even tho I only had 880 cals yesterday 💔

I only post my intake

I haven’t even packed yet lol

i had a fight with my bf and now I don’t feel like going on vacation with my bf anymore 💔

anyway today I’ll have porridge at around 11ish and then I can’t eat until 4 yay

i woke up with stomach cramps 💔

tomorrow is the last day of starving and smoking 💔

wake up and break up

sorry for the mini crash out yesterday 🥲