sev

do they not realize that this stresses me out

to be run over

i'm gonna cut myself so fucking deep i hope i bleed out in my sleep

i don't have any real friends, all of my friends are just actors planning to hurt me when i'm most vulnerable

the hurting never ends

it's all in my head i said, banging on a piano

i push myself too hard for other people

if getting into situationships that hurt me deeply was a job i'd be employee of the year every single year

i belong to you, be with me now

i'm just another body

i want to disappear

it must really suck being my friend

i want to be forgotten

people use literally every single excuse in the fucking book to get away from me lol

i'm so dumb

ahaha i suck so much

i should cut everyone off and kill myself

it works much better if i let it drag me around

if only you could take me out instead of back in

friend committed suicide around 24 hours ago at this point and i can't shake off the feeling that it's partly my fault.. i should've been more responsive while they were here i should've seen the warning signs i should've been a better friend

does she even love me anymore

i guess everyone's tired of me now

there's no way i'm making it out of 2025 alive lol

now i'm afraid to talk to the person i love the most because i don't want to fuck things up further

it is taking a lot of strength to not blow my head straight off right this instant

crying not even a minute after i woke up because of course i had to wake up to an absolutely heart shattering message

empty

i need to leave

all my fault all my fault all my fault

too cheery when i'm not meant to be, not cheery enough when i'm meant to be