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Hey #edsky this is probably a goodbye for me. Im attempting recovery because my ed just doesnt bring me the joy and shit. Like it didnt bring me joy for the past 5 years either but like im lowkey comited. I wont delete my account and i may come back to check on moots/if i relapse, ily bye for now<3

I HAVE MADE A DECISION TO NOT CONTINUE EMOJI ACCOUNTABILITY TRACKER.
Just cuz. It makes me binge more. Like i went 3 months without binging and now its like every week so yuh #edsky
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BINGED BUT UNDER 1300 SO YAAAY😭 APPROX 1242 could be more tho

Mostly venting but pls reply if you feel this way too, i hope im not alone #edsky #anabsky #caterpillarsky

But ive also got an ego and the idea of mistreating myself on purpouse is just bizarre. Like i know my worth and i trust my capabilities, im sucesfull academically and id be even better if i didnt waste my energy on an ed. Like do i really anorexia to be the thing keeping me from being my best?

Having way too much guilt to recover and the desire to be skinny but also recovery thoughts is?? An odd situation. Because i dont want to give up restricting ive alredy gone so far and lost so much i cant stop now, but like(finnish in reply)
#edsky #caterpillarsky

1159kcal and 2km on a treadmill! Im back on track #edsky

1398kcal🥲 more then i would like but i did my best, even skipped breakfast and ate half of my lunch but my family pressured me into high cal dinner

1071kcal! Felt super tired the whole day

Checking in early #edsky wont be able to track going to bday party. Strategy is to eat clean so that im less likely to binge on junk and use this to get vitamins in cuz ive got deficiencies

So hey #edsky im in a shit situation cuz i overate yesterday and i have friends bday party to go to so i wont track tmrow either. To make up for it i had 962 today AND yoga AND 11k steps, so, yeah
#caterpillarsky #edtwt

Help itz not working heelppp #edsky i did the two fingers, i gagged at least 3 times but nothing came out whyy why us it not getting out

AAAH #edsky ate over 2k should i purge pls lmk within 30mind im indecisive

Family decided takeout so ill take a metab day😭

1189! First day of school got a lot of compliments on my dyed hair, some good grades and overall lovely day

Just under 1200, dyed my hair did skincare and tried to un-stress myself before school but AAAAH still panicing cuz its first day after holidays and we have huge geo exam

935kcal and no physical activity!, woke up at 5:30 so i can get used to school wake up time and spent the entire morning watching barbie movies, will watch the nutcracker one tmrow
#edsky #caterpillarsky

I try to make as much space for fruits so i can have at least a bit normal digestion but its not easy. And most of the time i eat lower kcal junk because im super hungry and when i make a budget for it by skipping meals im just glad i can have some sugar but man my skin would break out a lot

Sup #edsky, just a little rant here. Surprisingly what i miss a lot since i started restrictig is a lot of high cal healthy foods, i started out ortho so it makes sense but like, wallnuts, avocado, bannana, normal fat yoghurt? Like dude i wanna be healthy but i know ill gain weight for sure

#edsky #caterpillarsky gained weight😭😭😭 i know a lot of it is water weight and ill loose it quickly ane ive been super constipated but ouch does it hurt

1230! Yes i had the audacity to go over 1200🙄 but i ran 5km on a treadmill and burnt around 200kcal so i dont mind as much
#edsky #caterpillarsky

Hey #edsky. Feelin very binge rn sad and lonely but i brushed my teeth and im too tired to walk for food yaaay. Its like a curse knowing no one will love me if im fat but wanting to eat everything because i feel like im alone

Managed to do under 1200! But no workout, took a rest day but ill go running tomorrow since its also hair wash day

i dont want to be the one who lacks self control and i know im not overweight but i think she thinks i am because im 5kg more then her and shes a bit taller but tbh i could be paranoid cuz i barely know her

And i see the delusional virgie tovar and if i gain weight will i be like that? Will i even know it? Im so scared of slipping up and gaining weight because i know one person who will judge me for it and

Hey #edsky, a little vent rant
Do you ever fear your hunger? Like im so hungry always even after huge meals what would happened if i ate till i didnt feel hungry? Ill just eat and eat and boom i look like a fat ass whale and everyone will see how i lost my self control and its just a scary thought

Hey #edsky! Today at 1244, super hungry. I wanted to stay bellow 1200 but i was so hungry and kept having binge thoughts so i decided to do the right thing and have some cardboard ricecakes and its better now so im just glad i didnt binge

YALL I FEEL SO DUMB, i thrifted a shirt that made me look skinny asf but when i got home i noticed the size is an L which obviously triggered me cause i aint usually an L... well 3 months later and i realized i was holding it upside down and its a size 1 #edsky #caterpillarsky

Day 2! 1095 kcal eaten and 30 mins on a treadmill burned somewhere around 100-150, im starving hungry

Sup #edsky, those of ya who dont wear those fitness watch bracelets how do you know how much you burn on workout? I did 30 min on treadmill and treadmill said i burned around 90 but i asked chat gpt and she said 130-150, both know my weight and heartbeat but chat knows my height and age as well