doomsday

notes from church; went this morning -- was tempted by a church sister with food; felt a little odd about it, i was led by temptation to betray etiquette and write numbers for the church; the seed that falls to the thorns suffocates, etc; very cold

the october subscriber post is done, and here: demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/october-su...
thank you everyone who supported me; it means a lot to me, always

i forced myself to illustrate something for the story, and posted it on my other socials; now: just to finish up the monthly post tomorrow and i can say goodbye to october

shamelessly advertising this again; i couldn:t sleep last night because i was excited to have finished it; i would like to do an illustration for it but i just can:t come up with anything lately; my thumbnails were all dead; if you read it, let me know!

Haunted House Saint of Blue Cars

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i finished it; i couldn:t make an illustration that i was happy with, so i:m only posting it here until i decide if i like this picture for it or not -- but please read it, if you:d like; it:s a little more depraved, for me, than usual

just finished writing; i:ll be late; i realized yesterday i was exhausted and went to bed

food i made that i liked recently: bread softened in mayo with single slice of velveeta rolled up and left to be room temperature; black beans, egg, cilantro, cabbage wrap; broccoli sandwich; carrot, broccoli, mashed cauliflower, quarter slice of black garlic pizza no one wanted all boiled in a cup

hoping to have the writing for haunted house 2025 finished tonight, then some illustration for it done tomorrow, and posted then, coinciding with the 8th day sabbath; had no input on the draft because it:s basically too embarrassingly erotic for me to ask anyone to read; i:d feel weird about it

posting, two days in a row, because a rare occurrence: saw on /rsbookclub this article archive.ph/DV8z2 about angelicism01 and had a big "hey i knew angelicism, i remember that person" moment; was sad i wasn:t featured but i:m a footnote at the very height of whatever relevance; still just writing

i:ve been having a lot of fun with writing this years haunted house, it:s close to being finished; it:s maybe the most self-indulgent thing i:ve written, and is basically erotica -- in time for halloween

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here:s the programming for this week; busy with haunted house rewrite, so it:s very short this week

itagaki died; that moved me enough to want to post--just a strange person to see die; i:ve been watching oniisama e, and writing haunted house (3rd revision); i:ve been reading a lot

the programming for this week is done, and posted here:
demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro... it:s another short story, about a rainy day

the programming for this sabbath is done demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

here:s the subscriber post for september; thank you to everyone for supporting me
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off to bed

the programming for this sabbath demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro... it:s a short story this time

i had a fun day at work today because i ended on a really fun audiobook, "the last days of jack sparks," it's like a really good found footage film, i:m really enjoying it; went to the farmers market, all the old staff at the butchers place was gone; a lady hugged me; ate meat today -- feel gross

finished katie, by mcdowell, audiobook; really liked it, put me in the mood for more horror-ish stuff; need another audiobook for work tomorrow though -- hit a lot of duds lately, dropped ~8 audiobooks this month; mcdowell:s a fun author; no church, i:m too afraid to show up, feel some guilt at this

liked this panel; baccano i meant

sick yesterday and this morning; been without migraine for awhile, i was due; think i:ll read crow cillers this month, maybe, still loving megatokyo; escaflowne still great, the twins are bad characters but cool; watched 1 ep of canaan yesterday, it:s like a fusion of bacanno, madlax, and jormungand

i was so happy to wake up and be alive this morning; this morning episode of escaflowne was neat--put me in the mood to write the haunted house story for this year; the air is crisp lately, making me want to watch more anime; read more manga; read more in general; a bit sad, a bit happy

this made me laugh

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the programming for this sabbath is done; was slow to finish the art, struggled with drawing today

shall I say o Lord: this blood poisons at my lungs and I feel now a chill swelling near my ribs; I have wasted what thin light you gave me; in the morning, we had pancakes together, I baked you cornbread mixed with honey or cream; I took oil my physician placed at my tongue, my blood became strange

the weather this morning fell again to be a sodden dark, muggy, flat, warm; i pray, grateful, & again the pit stand tall below at my feet, down to underground, there i spread my fate; am heard at my chest a sharp stabbing pain, centered to my breast-bone, acute with my breath, beets & milk for breft

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started and read the first chapter of shirley jackson:s sundial, and remembered exactly why she:s my favorite--i only want to read one book by her a year, she:s so precious; the weather is just so beautiful i wish i could always feel like this; it is like today only of the year i have been living

the weather is so nice i just want to tell someone i love them; i love them! my next audiobook was "little big" by crowley but i dropped it because the narration was flattening; i switched to "rabbit hutch" and i really am adoring it, perfectly fits the weather and i feel crisp, myself, today

today: there is a nice chill in the air and it is very pretty outside; for dinner i had boiled carrot, cabbage, turnip, beet, tato, & it was very good; this morning i had yogurt mixed with a puree of beet and cocoa and it was very good; i wrote more to chapter 3; i was so hungry i could barely sleep