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pixie being fat and sleepy

#nsfwart #fatfur

Also made some Umamusume pieces for the lunar new year.
#vore #NSFW

Happy year of the horse!
#vore #NSFW

drew @rsbhonekas.bsky.social bcs she wore only an apron a week back and im so normal about it

Drew my Atlyss character to practice drawing on Krita.

PTSD - Part 15 (Final)

My mind is still a buzzing hive of white noise because of all the thoughts racing around. But I'll put it out there once I find the words to do so. So that's all for now.

PTSD - Part 14

Even writing causes me to choke up for brief moments. I'll see if this helps, I hope it does. Regardless, I can't do this alone, I've tried my whole life. So I'm looking for someone to help with this stuff, maybe a therapist that specializes in family trauma or something.

PTSD - Part 13

I was hesitant to ever write about any of this. For one, who would care? Secondly, no one wants to hear a random person trauma dump. I still feel hesitant but I can't think of any other productive way of putting this stuff outside of myself without breaking down.

PTSD - Part 12

I'm not a violent person, I rarely ever fight back which I probably shouldn't do. I'm trying to change that. When it comes to imagining facing him though I just feel the fight instinct and the emotional hurt that drives my desire to destroy him painfully.

PTSD - Part 11

As for my brother, I still keep ruminating fighting back. Getting revenge in some way. Most of my dissociation and nightmares have him trying to hurt me in some way and me fighting back.

PTSD - Part 10

She feels she failed as a parent, or at least my sister seems to think so. I don't know how much I can buy that given that she's still deeply enmeshed. But if it is true I'm glad she feels like a failure because quite frankly she is.

PTSD - Part 9

I hate both of them, I pity my mom due to her circumstances but despite my hatred I still hope she lives a life worth living. Just without involving me in it. So far she's not bothered me ever since I screamed back at her.

PTSD - Part 8

I still keep checking behind my back when my back's not against the wall or if I'm sitting at my desk. There's this sense of dread that I'll either be screamed at or beat up. That fear has been built over years of getting hit without warning by my older brother and mother.

PTSD - Part 7

The nightmares and my reaction to them forced me to realize that one simply does not 'get over it'. There are still habits I can't get over even though I'm in a completely different environment.

PTSD - Part 6

It's like my logical/information brain can put it all together but the lymbic system, the emotional part just can't absorb it. It's too much when it's all together. This is I suppose my way of slowly letting that pressure out in a controlled manner.

PTSD - Part 5

I just sidelined it because I internalized my abuser's constant berating and downplaying of the trauma I was being subjected to. I still find it hard to accept, I still emotionally cannot accept it. When I do, just speaking about it vocally causes me to break down weeping.

PTSD - Part 4

The last few days I've been seeing nightmares that made me relive the feeling of thrashing wildly to defend myself from physical and emotional abuse. I've had rumination and dissociation problems ever since I was a kid.

PTSD - Part 3

Being numb allows one to function and denial allows one to not face the gravity of things around them. My mind automatically thinks 'You're exaggerating your problems' or 'you're too sensitive, others have it worse and they are fine.'

PTSD - Part 2

It's given me time to reflect on many things and feel things I previously did not have the time to or rather simply could not afford to. I didn't want to admit quite a few things to myself as a part of this dissociation tactic.

I think I have PTSD - Part 1
(CW: Mentions of trauma and family abuse)

The tendency to undermine my own feelings and emotions comes easily. It's not surprising given the fact that I've been conditioned to do so my whole life. Up until an year ago I was still exposed to my family.

mornings

naughty elf
#oc #nsfw #fat

Comic showing a big, fat lady with dark skin sitting on the side of the road. She's wearing white bra and panties, which are squishing her folds and fat in certain places. She burps loudly then exclaims: "Whatta-day!". A red bus drives by and immediately swerves to get away from her. She says: "Huh? Oh man, I'm so full. I can barely fit anything in my mouth." Immediately after, she picks up the bus before it gets away. The bus "protests" by honking over and over but she pushes it in her belly button. Her belly button slurps the bus in, her folds crush it on the way. The last panel is her looking down at her huge belly and folds, licking her lips, and going: "Mmm!".

Comm from a while back, done for Vinny Voicemail

Drew Sloth from my game as a breather from commission work.

#BBW #NSFW #Vore

TYSM! ^^

New Animation Commission I took forever to make.

#vore #NSFW #BBW

Comm done for Esesr (on Eka's) ft. Velera and their OC Sera

#vore #nsfw

Felt sexy with @bluehandfish.bsky.social, might delete later. >_>

An animation commission for Vik and their friend Arte.