...just Sasha 🚩🏳️‍⚧️

If nothing else, at least I tried ✌️🥹

Before hrt, I was shaving my face 2 times a day.

After 17 months hrt, I'm still shaving my face 2 times a day, but the shadow became that much more visible and my skin is that much more sensitive and all of this is fucking me even more up than ever and everything's just meh and maybe I wanna scream

Merry third of advent 💫✨ 🕯️🕯️🕯️ 🎅

(Quote is from D Graeber. Fragments of an anarchist anthropology 2006: 72)

Auch spannend so 🤔

"...bezahlbar MACHEN!"

statt

"bezahlbar BLEIBT."

"Machen", das so so so viel bessere Wording, imho.

Gestalten vs Reagieren.
Eintreten vs. Auffangen.
Erlebte Wirklichkeit vs. Abstiegsangst.
Positive Vision vs. Schlimmeres Verhindern.
Breitere vs. Spitzere Ansprache.

Meanwhile Germany:
👀

Neue Hinweise zu Vermischung mit Neandertalern Durch Analysen der bisher ältesten Menschen-DNA haben Forscherinnen und Forscher neue Hinweise zur Vermischung von Neandertalern und modernen Menschen gefunden. Ein genetisch prägendes zentrales „Verm...

Thank you SO very much for my bloody enormous brow ridge, you thirsty fucks!

It's easy to think trans kids are quietly coping, because you just don't have gender dysphoria & can't imagine it.

You chat with them about school, friends. Birthdays. The future. They seem fine. You forget what they told you before, tell yourself they're fine now they're older. Then it happens.

Isn't that just great there would be SO bloody much names that would come to mind? 😔

But what if I WANT to be a spoiled upper class brat with as few braincells as the room temperature, with my very own Quango and my very own PR department on full-time, with all the right numbers in my phone, trying to make life a living hell for anybody else, just because I'm the main character?

Two things can be true:

• It's never too late.

• Being devastated, broken beyond words, beyond any redemption by the terrible weight of all those lost years, by the sheer fact of a whole life not lived; the screaming grief, sorrow, pain of that loss, the whispering knowledge there's no going back.

Can't touch:

• This
• A falling star
• CEOs (Well...)
• Most zoo animals
• Kevin Costner
• Deadlines
• All those of us who are lost, desperate, lonely, and this hurts, especially sometimes at 3 AM...
• Uranium
• Laser pointers
• WLAN cables
• You

In Germany we don't say "your digital activism lacks crucial skills, insights, and most of all it's terrible old-fashioned and totally without any charm".

We say "Himmelarsch, wie altbacken kann mensch sein, zieh Dir doch mal den Stock aus dem Hintern!"

...and I think that's on point.

Halt auch doof zu merken, dass wenn Du Dich dauernd hintanstellst niemand mehr hinter Dir steht...

Won't end well:

• Capitalism
• A Song Of Ice and Fire
• You and me
• J. K. Rowling
• Cutting your own hair
• Hugging an ice bear
• Being a centrist
• Trusting friends
• "Nobody's that dumb..."
• My transition
• Capitalism
• Lists
•

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Peak anxiety, curled up in bed with my coziest biggest hoodie, my heart racing in my throat, one arm hiding most of my face, and scrolling and scrolling and scrolling, searching for if only I'd know...

Ich hab mal gelesen, wer auf die Frage:

"Hattest du ne schöne Kindheit?"

nachdenken muss, hatte keine.

Es ist wahr.

<-- Again and again mildy surprised about the self-righteous jingoism in german social media discourse 🤷‍♀️

In Germany we don't say "wenn wir nicht dringend mal den freidrehenden Kapitalismus als Ursache angehen, wird der Faschismus gewinnen".

We say "geil abschieben erstmal!"

...and I didn't expect anything else 🤬

Give me all the bacon and eggs you have - meme, but from the perspective of a freezing trans gal: Give me all the cozy scarves, gloves, socks!

First winter, well, "winter", on hrt...

...send cozy scarves, gloves, socks!!! 🥶🥶🥶

Come on Meme with a transgender twist. The stick figure poking against Gynocadin gel, cigarettes and beer. Come on, fix my mood...

Ya, c'mon 😔

🥰

Come on meme; Strichmännchen mit Gynocadin und Joints

So? (War grad dabei ..)

Und wir haben beide gleichzeitig geschrieben, und beide mit "So?" zum Bild, wie mega 🥳

Come on meme with cigarettes and gynocadin

So?

This nagging feeling I would have surrendered a long, long, long time ago.

Alas, to whom?

"OMGOMGOMG!"
"Yes."
"Uh?"
"I said yes."
"Uh?"
"I'm afraid you finally made it."
"Uh?
"Please stop saying that. Your ride is over. The end. Kaputt."
"Uh? Sorry. Sooo I never got my OPs?"
"Never. But hey, after all nothing ever happened anyway, so."
"All my anxiety was for nought?"
"Kinda."
"Bugger."

Oh yeah, so much this! ❤️

Dear Santa,

I hope this finds you well.

Sorry for not writing since 1989, I was dead at the time.

In this context, please cancel my wishes for that pony, bmx bike, and sister.

But if you would be so kind:
I wish to be able to look in the mirror without despair, or crying.

Just once.

Hugs
Sasha

Getting hit by anxiety cause i woke up? 🤔

Waking up cause i got hit by anxiety? 🤔

I srs don't know anymore 🙄

I'm glad it makes you happy, I'm glad you are in a better place because of it - who would have thought, right, all those possible routes to make the world a little bit better, and not only it starts as simple as treating fellow humans with kindness, it's also makes one feel better.

❤️