Ivy McClaire

Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been rebuilding my relationship with Avery and doing therapy with Serena. Slowly but surely despite everything feeling like it's against me and Chernabogs presence, I've been doing better. I've been filming here and there, nothing that constitutes a vid though.

Changed my banner, it reminded me of Avis, I'd rather not think of her right now. I'm happy and I don't want that streak to stop. I've been given the opportunity to rest and enjoy life. I have no idea when I'm going to leave again, the CoTWE has yet to tell me anything about that timey wimey shit.

@redredhat.bsky.social thanks for getting me in touch with Serena. She's been absolutely lovely with getting me ready for future sessions. It's a nice change of pace to have a therapist who can actually listen to me and doesn't see me as unhinged. Lol

YouTube video by Ivy's Memoirs Unexpected Butterflies

What I'm comfortable showing from my meeting with Avery. Truth is she's staying with me for a few days.
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Happy birthday, mine was back in July on the 12 though its weird celebrating my 25th on my 28th

I got a hold of Avery, I'm meeting her on Friday. I don't even know what to say or do or how to act. I just want to break down but I can't meet her and be a mess after all that's happened. Wish me luck.

It's my pleasure to use the limited resources I have.

I really appreciate that, it means a lot. I wish you the best as well. I only seen a bit of what you've uploaded. It seems we all need some luck and support these days.

Thank you to everyone I reached out to, it means a lot that you all think kindly of me.

I'm moving the Qna to sometime in the future. Write here or in the comments of my last video if there's anything you want to ask me.

YouTube video by Ivy's Memoirs Some things I haven't talked about. Where do I go from here?

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Y'all have til Tuesday at 6pm EST.

I'm going to be answering any questions given to me. If you have one write it in the comments. If I see it as interesting and not stepping over boundaries I'd be happy to answer.

Still tracking down these regional wards is a pain in the ass. It's nice to see that Appalachia is one step closer to being a Chernabog free zone, 6 more to eventually go... Also do you mind if I reach out sometime this week. I have a lot on my mind that I need to get off my chest.

That the wards are still there but the object used to enter it has changed. That all of the objects change and shift with time, and that's why it's hard to pin it down. Makes sense.

Well I got confirmation that the ward that I entered near my home on that lone tree was fixed. I was looking outside today and it's gone. I asked my dad where it went and he responded with "what tree", like it never existed at all. I called up T and he said that it's normal.

A lie but not far from the truth.

I caught up with Miles last night, we went to a sushi place and drank a whole bottle of sake. It was a fun night. I felt normal for once. We talked a bit about job prospects and such. I'm proud of my lil bro getting his life together. In return I told him I was working as a private courier.

I just gotta work up a bit of courage, there are things I ought to say to friends first before I tell randos on the Internet, please have patience while I get my shit together. It's taking a lot to stay afloat and not break down. I keep telling myself I have to be strong because if I'm not who is.

I plan on eventually updating you folks again. Though Im going to reach out to some friends I haven't talked to in a long time, well at least on my end. I've been picking up the pieces of myself for a while. I don't think I'll ever feel whole but i do think I'm ready to share a lot of things. Soon.

YouTube video by Ivy's Memoirs Let's Talk About Magick!

I did something last Monday
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I had another encounter with Chernabog last night, he just watched me while I was sleeping. I woke up and we both stared at each other until I got interrupted by the remnants of my dinner. I have gotten used to how he looks but the way he makes me feel never changes. I need to set up master wards.

YouTube video by Ivy's Memoirs Through Hills and Hollers

There are a few things I'm not ready to discuss, for now I'm gonna take a rest.
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I don't know how busy I will be, I know what I'm doing fixing this region wards will be a hard task. So to those who message me and reach out. I'll get back to you when and if things are calm and I'm not out "walking" around. I still hate calling it that. Why can't it be called something cooler.

Alright, I don't know when my next update will be, but I'm leaving again. I got to fulfill the role I was given by the Coven. I knew I would have to do this at some point.

Keep practicing, you're getting somewhere.

YouTube video by Darren Wright Podcast Unknown - Ivy's Memoirs

I got interviewed a few weeks back before I returned home, I learned a lot and realized a bit about myself but also this guy is an asshole. I don't recommend going on this podcast.
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Thank you Nat, I'm wishing you the best for your future, truly.

Smart or not, I'm doing my best to keep myself safe. I plan on helping those dealing with these things as I also don't want to see people hurt. At the end of the day we both are treading the paths we view necessary.

I dreamt of too many black trees with spindling branches. Someone once told me phases of the moon can symbolize change and empower people in different ways Spiritually. I feel a new path I've yet to fully tread.