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The Iranian government has absolutely done incredibly awful things.

Conversely, the US as World Police kidnapping and assassinating leaders is horrifying.

That the president is doing whatever he wants without obeying SCOTUS or Congress is a mirror to the evil he purports to be fighting against

Was struggling how to articulate this last night, typing and untyping, with battery running out.

I don't have words for the soul deep "this is wrong" of president of the US just starting another forever war. I'd also be upset had this gone via proper channels, but less "wtf is he going to do next?"

Safely got into Union Station at half midnight.

Got to where we were staying by 1 something, neither of us got to sleep before 3am

My phone was drained, and discovered it doesn't want to charge in bedroom, but charges in kitchen. Shortly to venture out for sustenance

Like, not fussed about being an hour later. It might be context of knowing someone was injured or killed earlier by a freight train, from going to look up why we were delayed.

Going to be very grateful to get off train and hold partner for first time since October. Already was, but more.

ETA 1 hour and 10 minutes beyond scheduled, getting in after midnight.

My eyes are gritty, and I am exhausted.

I wouldn't mind as much, but an older woman in front of me has been Very Huffy under her breath continuously.

Been renovating stuff in House Flipper on laptop to try to tune out

This is first time I have felt grateful for low battery to prevent me from refreshing to observe new horrors in the news. The horrors persist. I wish they didn't.

Have been reading a book, would like to continue, but going to swap to a game to preserve some phone battery. (Am internally screaming)

Partner has landed; train is sitting east of Kingston, four trains from Toronto direction have to clear the station before we can go into Kingston.

I should probably pull out laptop and play game. Phone is at 34% and I unfortunately packed charger in my big luggage at other end of train.

Partner will almost definitely be first to Toronto - we were told we are holding in Brockville due to freight accident near Kingston & backlog of traffic.

Via Reddit, it sounds like a pedestrian was struck by a CN Train 😔

Made it to train in spite of Increased Horrors, hot flashes, ADHD -- "why don't we finally put the fabric we want on the coat?" & "we could bring allll the felting stuff" and roiling lower gut.

Partner got on their plane, boarding was later than expected, so we see who reaches Toronto first.

One completed chickadee at right, progress of another at left. Top down view of work surface covered in yellow towel. One completed chickadee on right, in progress body at center left. Wings and tail (pre-felt, covered in roving) behind in progress birds. A blue sponge that looks new, a red sponge below it that has been compressed in the middle from repeated felting. A felting needle in wooden handle is poked into the red sponge.

Chickadee felting progress from last night. The one on the right of the image was finished other week. The one on left has been several episodes of X-Files and Deep Space Nine in the making. (Head is going to get better shape, but have to pack)

I am very grateful I caught toilet inlet fail within 10-15 minutes.

Today, floor in basement only damp around edges of stuff on floor.

Going to have to remind roommate that downstairs toilet door needs to be left wide open for subfloor to dry (it self-closes unless I put a boot in the way)

Going to go grab soaked towels/ get them in washer.

Basement floor is just going to be swamp until it goes down floor drain.

Gonna find food.

Was right around midnight when it broke.

And I still need to pack and deal with duct tape roommate put on my suitcase handle

I need to take my sleeping meds, but, adrenaline fucks with them.

And if roommate comes home, manages to trigger flight/fight, that's an off switch for the meds.

If I hadn't forgotten to take my probiotics earlier, I likely would have just not gone downstairs, and that would have been flooding until whatever time roommate finally gets home.

Not going to argue next time roommate wants to shutoff water when we're both gone for a week+

The sound was vaguely as if maybe next door (townhouses) was running a shower, but not a noise I had heard before. It wasn't quite right.

As soon as I got down stairwell, I was "wait, is roommate home? Is there a giant snake? What is that?"

Got to bathroom, saw jet, got hit by jet turning shutoff

Water halfway up sandal sole by bathroom. Moved pantry items. Got all the towels on floor, went to basement and fuck. That's a lot of water.

I'm catching 4 hour train to meet partner flying into country tomorrow. I need to go to sleep.

Roommate hasn't come back from swing dance yet

Friends, if you hear a New and Different sound, and it persists for more than a minute, get up and make sure it isn't coming from within the building.

Downstairs toilet, hooked up September 2024, hadn't been used since this morning.

Suddenly jetting water at tank connection for 5 minutes sucks

If you can get a mask where the hose connects above your head (vs in front of nose or mouth), they are a lot easier in my experience to sleep with. I wish they existed when I first got mine

(I use nasal pillows, so I'm not 100% sure if there is a over mouth and nose mask with over head option.)

I have sleep apnea, but narcolepsy was diagnosed a decade beforehand.

Sleeping with a mask is going to feel different. Because you've got something on your face.

I acclimatized myself to how it feels via reading with it on, journaling, go to bed type things

Be gentle with yourself if you can 🫂

This list is so weird. So many inclusive pagans and authors in the part I scrolled.

(How do you find if you have been put on a user curated moderation list like this?)

(I pull up Flight radar when I hear different aircraft approaches than the standard, and then tend to geek out for a while looking at various planes. End up with a relative feel for norm)

Carriers to/from SAN to YYC/YOW/YUL have drastically decreased flights and increased price last yr to now

We haven't had a lot of US flights, it's been decreasing since the new visa changes that went into effect last April (fuck it was wild to be in the US, non-binary, as the changes were announced with my flight home just before the changes came into effect), then another drop off June, then October

Whereas when I look on FlightRadar, there is Delta and United flying over Canada, one is Salt Lake City to Amsterdam (which I didn't know was a direct route). Seeing FedEx and UPS flights, including one from Alaska to Louisville www.flightradar24.com/UPS63/3e68b5c6

(I have a partner in progress of trying to get here permanently, and is flying in two weeks, so I'd love a heads up that I can link to.)

I am confused.

I am in Canada. I am looking on government websites and see nothing about this.

I have asked two friends who work at Transport Canada and have heard nothing about this (Carney releasing anything today related to aviation in response to Trump tariff threats)

Source? Not seeing anything on Transport Canada's website.

Got to endocrinologist appointment.

Got reminded that today is exactly one year anniversary of starting to transform medically. 🎉

I feel like I should do -something- to celebrate while simultaneously concerned that I am already going to be days recovering from drive across city.

I love those eyes! They look feral uncanny in the best way!

"how do you know they're the vector?"

Because I mask when I am out, and have barely been out due to getting over one thing then coming down with something else since week after they got back from Japan.

They keep insisting they're not sick, coughing and sneezing then *poof* I get same days later

Am very tired of getting sick.
Please wear a mask in public.

(I live with 71 year old who volunteers with swing dance group, and has a lot of coworkers with kids. I haven't been able to get them to reliably wear a mask since their second heart surgery last year, and they bring home everything)