on another note, ive deleted almost everything on my ao3 because of this, i dont want to have any of my works shown anymore, and i will not repost them. sorry, you'll have to find an archive, if someone did archive them before my freakout

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i mainly came back because i wanted to apologize. if people don't want to accept my apology, thats fine too, i'd rather people know im okay. hope you understand. i dont want to give a petty teary eyed story, so, there.

thanks

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even if i wasn't myself during my spirals it does not excuse my actions, for that im deeply sorry. thirdly, i doubt i'll be very active here because of my academic career and my recovery, the most ill do is try to post a doodle or some stupid shitpost here and there

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secondly, i'd like to apologize to the people ive hurt and pushed away from my spirals. i was in over my head from the constant fear and paranoia that i believed myself to be hated by everyone around me, when in reality it wasn't the case

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hello, its leste.

first and foremost im fine, i was released from the hospital on a 5150 or so they call it, put on some supervision for a day and here i am. in a few days (i hope), ill get with my doctor and try to talk about an SSRI i can take with adderall

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