digital ghostie

everything in the US is inconvenient and expensive and low quality. everything. i'm so sick of feeling ripped off.

i was really glad to see that after i posted! i did get a new follower out of it and one swiftie from minnesota thanked me for speaking up. then there were several racist comments about immigration & someone mocking my pronouns. ooooh she/they. so scary! there are some very nasty fans. 😔

is she coming or going? is she leaving you or being left behind? is she remembering? 🤔

the road not taken looks real good now

sometimes, walkin' out is the one thing
that will find you the right thing

you know when it's time to go

actually
i always felt i must look better in the rear view

omg no way! lawyering is an ART. i love watching trials on youtube. (i know not all of it is dramatic; most law is research and writing and negotiating.) i love watching any kind of lawyer craft an argument both in court and on paper. it's fascinating to me. seriously, mad respect.

here's a page from my journal. just a little glimmer of joy to share. 💛

i'm admittedly a bit of a hothead aries sometimes, so tonight has been a good chance for me to practice dialing it down a bit. 😉 thanks for approaching this with kindness. i'll definitely take a look at what you've posted!

boooooooo. the worst!

yaaay!! thank you! respect right back to you, attack librarian! 😉

this theory makes sense to me and i have subscribed to this line of thinking before. i would LOVE for this to actually be the case & i think there are signs it is. but i waffle. i should probably journal when i feel like this instead of interact here. i don't want to ruin my friends' happy place.

a woman with blonde hair and red lipstick is wearing a black sequined jacket ALT: a woman with blonde hair and red lipstick is wearing a black sequined jacket

THANK YOU.

can i get this tattooed inside my eyelids or what?! 🤣

good point & good strategy. i think everything feels so heavy right now & i just want to *know* for sure she's on the right side of history.

anyway, thanks for engaging in a disarming, kind way. sorry i came to this convo with both barrels blazing. 🩷

i really appreciate that you're empathetic & willing to have a reasonable dialogue. i want to believe she's still a good, compassionate person. she has acted as one in the recent past with donations. who knows. we'll never actually know who these ultra rich & famous people truly are. 🤷🏻‍♀️

i would honestly rather be swept up in the fun of opalite. it's my favorite song on the record. but here i am, a miserable potato. i think i'm gonna have some ice cream & zone out in front of solitaire & youtube. maybe by friday i'll be excited or something. 🤣🩵

i had a friend who was at parsons when he was there (before PR) and said he was everything you saw on the show and more. supportive of his students, kind, engaged.

thing is, the silence is in the context of other things that make me uneasy. she doesn't feel like the same person anymore. this change seemed to happen when she got together with travis/nfl and her billionaire status was announced. she's welcome to clear this up. i'm not the only disappointed fan.

the country is literally collapsing. this is about people's lives. we should want those we love speak up for the vulnerable and for people's right to life and liberty. if that makes me too demanding or a big ol killjoy, then maybe this isn't the right fandom for me.

i agree with that in general. but i also reserve the right to be disappointed with her silence & to say that. i also reserve the right to spend my money with artists whose visible solidarity makes me feel included rather than ignored. i don't mindlessly follow artists or anyone else.

oh noooo! so glad you had backup. take care of yourself tonight. 🩷

i want that taylor back. taylor before the billions and football man and the NFL and hanging out with maga. the taylor that wax sealed those bonuses for her team. taylor who said gay pride makes her who she is. not whoever this is. if this is all performance art, it's time for the reveal.

meanwhile, tori amos is about to release a record about the fight for democracy and human rights in the US. may 1.

and that comment about how she could talk about her wedding for days if people let her. (very much paraphrasing). where's the energy for her own country? for her own fans? i'm just really disappointed. i probably need to just journal about it though. fans don't want to hear it.

she could LITERALLY post something vague about supporting human rights or she could donate some of the sales from opalite to groups that work with immigrants or even the aclu. selena, gaga, billie have spoken up! lorde, who isn't even american, donated 200K to mutual aid efforts! no excuse for this.

*paid for all that cartier
fucking typo.

i don't know why i'm here (in this fandom) at this point. i feel like such a drag for my fellow 🌈lors too. i'm sure it's tiresome, but at least i give a shit?

that's what i get for going to TN insta & asking taylor to speak out about the current state of our country. how dare i beg someone i love (& have respected until recently) to show solidarity with the people who paid all that cartier when she made a whole doc about her political awakening. 🤦🏻‍♀️

just endlessly dumb and cult-like.

a man wearing glasses and a black suit stands in front of a green field ALT: a man wearing glasses and a black suit stands in front of a green field

mainstream swifties are deeply embarrassing.

i'll see if i can put something together over here and will report back asap. 🩵