Jen “cool older trans lady trying her best”

(not to overshare but) I felt emotions *really* strongly as a kid. I remember at least two separate instances of full sobbing meltdowns out of “bummed the VCR didn’t record a show I wanted to watch.” And I think somewhere around, oh, puberty 🙃🫠 I repressed all that so hard that it’s still compacted

yes 😞

No, Jen, it’s not “scroll Instagram until the fucking algorithm starts serving you the video diary of some Swedish trans girl who transitioned at 19 who looks like testosterone has never been in her same time zone and you have a breakdown,” that’s not the prescription for anything 🤦🏻‍♀️

*sigh* popped awake at six-thirty with a headache and an overwhelming sense of existential dread. Not sure if this is a xanax thing, an advil thing, or just a ‘drink more water’ thing… let’s go for the hat trick

honestly at this point I don’t remember? It was kind of neck & neck (so to speak 😏) whether on- or off-stage was first lol.

On-stage was more memorable, though. 😙 and ha ha, she kissed a girl, gayyyyy lol (I’m pretty sure she was bi tho, every girl at my high school was bi)

hence the pfp lol

IT’S SO GOOD. When Jacinthe and/or Lebanne aren’t onscreen the other characters should all be saying “where’s Jacinthe and/or Lebanne”

ugh I hate the sexist gender spawn rates. If they have to have gendered Pokémon at all (imo they don’t, I’m becoming a total geewunner about that lol) they should all be 50-50

damn legends Arceus was that good? I didn’t have a Switch until SV were like getting their DLC (I still haven’t played that DLC) so I missed it, but I’ve been loving ZA. Most fun I’ve had with a Pokémon game in years. So if Arceus was better I should grab that. The museum bit in ZA was so cute lol

Ty 🥰 i worked really hard on it lol

ok the arc with Lebanne (who is absolutely worth the wait. For reasons) is either right after the mafia arc or like there’s a little bit of Urbain bullshit in between (god I hate Urbain lol). you’re close!

uh yeah you do! Where did you leave off, and also do you want to talk about everything about the game bc I’ve been obsessed for weeks lol

eh, I respect that; it’s more—if this is not the place where people care about that aspect of my life, that’s totally fine! But then I want to take that part of my life to a place where it is cared about lol

my family are a bunch of WASPs who are all much more uptight & autistic than they think they are… horning it up would not help lol 😅

is it super annoying when I post Pokémon shit on here? I know it’s pretty off-topic for my transition diary… but this is where my friends are, and I want to share my special interest with y’all 🥺

WOW are we ever not using that phrasing in front of my family 😟😖😫

waiting for other ppl to engage each other & dropping a Draco Meteor on the whole group with my Special-specced shiny Dragonite doesn’t always work… (or even usually…) but when it does work it’s SO satisfying 😁

(And I didn’t even mega-evolve this time! Pretty lucky it worked here tbh 😅)

haha yup, that’s exactly the challenge I’m having with valerate! 😅 plus, now that I’ve bumped my 5-day cycle by a day, the next one is on… Thanksgiving 🙃

😓 probably take the whole kit to my parents’… 🤔 maybe I’ll give a little demonstration 😏😈😜

Hmmm, ok! See @penguinpopup.dev *this* is how one can best convince me to give a different ester a try 😜

Ups & downs in Pokémon Legends ZA online play, but I stumbled my way to Rank A (not too hard; you can only go up) and I’m starting to get a sense of the timing of it.

…Mostly wanted to show @telsie.bsky.social my new pfp lol 😅

DM me if you wanna be Switch friends btw! Happy to PVP or help w/trades

I was thinking less “‘murrica!”, more “It’s a Wonderful Life” but I think it works either way 🤷🏻‍♀️

whenever a Jen stabs herself, the spirit of Jen Stabs Herself Day is with you

I mean I think it helps at the level you mention but— “does the shot chemically have greater efficacy”? I can’t imagine it would

this is a good call. Tougher in the winter but worth some effort. Definitely the shower & such helped… my nails could use a touch-up too 😅

yes, let this be a lesson to me, possibly possibly 🙃

you’re the sweetest but I’m so uncomfortable even jokingly making this anyone else’s responsibility 😅

maybe I’ll start trying to post on here when I get the “shot day tomorrow” notification, put out a generalized call for “hey this bitch needs a stab in the leg soon” reminders lol

Usually I do five-day cycles! I was a day late on this one, though. Whoof.

I made the same assumption initially but I think my experiences (and my friends who seem to know a thing or two about endocrinology 😅) are starting to suggest that assumption was optimistic 😓

yeah, that’s what I figured 😓 maybe this will teach me a lesson (probably not, but a girl can dream 😅)

it was reasonable frustration at a bunch of things (short version, mostly anger at the org that fired me 2–3 months ago) and it was “snippy” rather than “frothingly irate”

but pointing it in a Sweetie direction was uncalled for… no matter how much better I am with managing anger than I used to be 😞

a little after 5:30? So about 4.5 hours ago (see, this is why I post these things instead of, like, keeping a diary—diaries don’t have timestamps! 😜)