Behind These Crazy Eyes

You’ll be the first to know 😘

Completely forgot to post this from like Wednesday I think? It’s been a long week/month/year 😵‍💫

Sometimes I feel bad for having to block folks, especially if they mention they have disabilities.

But like, are you seriously going to:
1. Not follow me
2. Not have any posts
3. No profile pic
4. No bio
5. Try to slide into my DMs and immediately ask me for my socials

I don’t think so.

Oh I’m gonna get me that angry little green birb

Ian’s chest hair peaking out of his undershirt thooo 🥵

I didn’t realize there was a celebrity villains show let alone 2 seasons of it.

But I’m surprised they have booked Law on the show yet. It’s hard to think of a bigger villain than him.

Run from the sun like Draculaaaaah

Also I’m trying to be less of a negative hating ass jaded bitch and some days like today are harder than others for me.

I’ve been catfished by a few other people briefly over the last 7ish years but I’m a lot more suspicious of folks online and on dating apps.

So if you’ve ever wondered why I never post nudes here, it’s because I’m traumatized. Less risk all around.

Anyway I’m super high and just felt like sharing.

This person proceeded to catfish me 3 more times over the span of about 6-7 years to the point where I think it just became fun for him.

After I called him out the final time he admitted that he was catfishing a straight guy to get nudes so that he could use those nudes to get my nudes.

I was met with multiple people I didn’t know (more than likely his friends or him using his friends phones) ridiculing me over text about how fake and stuck up I was. If only I had been nicer to “the real him” then he wouldn’t have threatened me. When I stood up for myself, I was “so mean”.

I sought legal counsel within my church, I had to come out to multiple people I never intended on coming out to. It was devastating and humiliating. But eventually I decided that I was fed up with the manipulation and the bullying and I told him to just leak the nudes, I didn’t care anymore.

When I was 18 and not fully out of the closet, someone from my high school catfished me for months, and when I finally caught on, the threatened to leak my nudes if I didn’t “give them a real chance”. This was before many revenge porn laws were in place so the experience was traumatizing.

I’ve been catfished multiple times. Each time I’ve learned from the experience about how untrustworthy some people can be.

And each time, I’ve come away feeling like the bad guy because I rightfully have no desire to look favorably upon someone who manipulated my emotions and lied to me.

I despise people who catfish with a fiery passion that knows no empathy.

Logically, I know what it’s like to hide who you are from others. It’s awful. But to do so in an attempt to take advantage of someone, especially to try to win romantic or sexual favors from them, is so triggering for me.

A picture of me, shirtless, only wearing jeans. It's a top down angle

I managed to put my pants on without needing to sit down today! (A small step for regular people, but a big step for me post hip surgery)

I would like to fire a new emblem now please Nintendo

Five authors by whom I’ve read at least five books:

Garth Nix 🔔
Frank Herbert 🏜️
Keira Andrews 🔞
K.A. Applegate 🐋
Terry Goodkind 🗡️

Eight movies to get to know me by:

1. Twister
2. The Day After Tomorrow
3. Deep Impact
4. LotR: Return of the King
5. Atlantis: The Lost Empire
6. Star Trek: Into Darkness
7. Sister Act 2
8. Selena

Have they made a Mega Wigglytuff yet? If they haven’t, they shouldn’t change the physical design at all. Just give it red eyes and a deep as voice/semi-demonic cry.

Hot little European daddy plumber just left and I may be feeling things

Tradesmen 🫦

Glad I worked out early this morning because my hot water heater burst right before I had to leave the house for an appointment. I am so tired 🫩

Really don’t love being this productive so early into the work day but we’ve got a busy schedule 🫩

No Valentine’s date and homework all day tomorrow are already leaving me feeling pretty discouraged so I figure I might as well splurge and treat myself to $10 worth of avocados. Take that budget.

Extra sweaty today because depression won’t fight itself 🤪

Need a man with big beefy naturals to come and aggressively cuddle me please

Tired

Finally resting with smol horror daddy Pyramid Head

I WANT THE SEEEEEEEEET