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Just one of those fishing caps that’s like “men fear me”

Is it weird that the men I seem to attract (romantic and friends) are always terrified of emotions and react to my creative and emotional nature with disgust?

She’s taking them down thank god

I told my mam the pictures that were taken of me the other night were triggering my body dysmorphia and she’s posted them on fb anyway, I look fucking hideous on them I’m so upset

It was so out of nowhere, they just started talking about this and then posted a pic of feet with icing on and that was enough for me to think “no thanks!!” They clarified it wasn’t a pic of their own feet so they’ve found it somewhere and I can’t tell if that’s more or less disturbing

Had to block someone on my main bc they started posting really fetishy stuff, like talking about p*ss k*nks and then posting random f/eet f/etish stuff like maybe tag it?? That’s really gross?? Each to their own but tag it omg

Tw suicide Tw politics

Everything happening in America genuinely makes me want to not be here anymore, I want to fight feeling so bad but I just lose all hope with things like this happening

It’s possible, your meds might cause an intolerance, that’s what’s happened with mine :/

Are you feeling better now though??

I’m sorry, that’s the worst, have you tried a hot water bottle or heated compress on your stomach??

I think having a friend who has dismissed everything I like about myself as ridiculous, unimportant or just not true doesn’t help

God trying to fight off the thoughts of “why would there be anything good about you?” Is such an uphill battle?? I feel like I’ve made so much progress but this all still floats around my head constantly

When you’ve dampened your personality your whole life bc you’re a people-pleaser with cptsd, so when you think you have something in common with a cool character you think you’re a narcissist for thinking something positive about yourself

Same here, as much as I can without too much catholic guilt hahahah

Absolutely, it’s just interesting to watch them suddenly panic about me

Im losing my mind, I woke up to multiple messages from the friend group that keeps going out without me, all asking if im okay and that they’re worried about me??? What is going on??? I think bc I deleted my Instagram they’re starting to panic

Good point hahah I think just for my own peace of mind I’d like to lock the account

I need to be able to lock this account so I can say heinous things without feeling guilty

It’s stuff like that that makes me feel even more stupid, it doesn’t help

It’s really irritating that while I’m going through shit with friends I’m getting a lot of “I didn’t like them from the start” or “I picked up they weren’t good straight away” like did you not think to share that with me…

It’s been over a decade of me trying and failing to move out

Annoyed with myself that I’m 27 and I hide in my room bc I can hear my mam shouting at my dad, it takes me right back to being 15 and feeling like my entire nervous system was being ripped out

It’s really annoying that my brain is so preoccupied with relationships rn, I wish I could just let it go but it’s just There all the time since the Xmas break started

Just figuring out I keep tricking myself into thinking I’m really mentally ill then I actually get proof that people are treating me like shit

All fine just a misunderstanding yesterday!

I feel so stupid whenever I let my guard down and things seem to get thrown back in my face, it’s ughhhh

Okay, moving my insane spiralling paranoid thoughts to here

Ohhh yeah that might do it hahah sorry just me! I just like to try and give people something to answer lol

Ugh god I mean how do you even respond to those, it’s really weird??
I’ve sent you some but just the automated ones you get when you press that dice hfhdhjf

You get nasty ones?? Is this on ngl?