Carissa Explains Nothing

Are you a person who has a fear of setting your feet down on the floor to get out of bed and a gremlin reaches out from under the bed and grabs you?
Then don’t get a cat.

“I hate when you remind me of what I did.”
WOW, what a coincidence. I ALSO hate being reminded of what you did but I live with the pain every day. It’s absolutely harder for me than it is for you.

The teenage version is “okay, I’m just going to do my hair and makeup and FaceTime three friends and finish my math homework real quick. Oh, and I can’t find my shoe.”

Save trimming the bangs for a more emotionally stable day

and it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. To be abused so horrifically and so publicly while being mocked and lied about and daily being encouraged to kill myself to “make the world a better place” and yet here I am… still fighting, still smiling, still loving, still breathing.

I never in my wildest dreams thought any of what happened was possible, or that it would happen to me.

I lived the worst case scenario. I’m still trying to put my life back together

me murdered then tried to trick me into going to meet him (he was impersonating someone else) at a certain location, maybe to kill me, and when that plan fell through he killed himself the next week.

any of this was possible and I never thought it could happen to me. I never knew that so many evil people existed. I never knew so many people would find it funny and literally enjoy trying to publicly abuse me to death. I never knew someone I thought was a caring friend would actually try to have

The stalking and harassment was constant. It seemed like he never slept.

When you watch documentaries like Unknown Number, please remember that these are real nightmares that real people have had to survive. I absolutely never knew

publicly spread insane lies. According to DMs sent to me, the goal was to “destroy my life and never stop.”

My stalker was creating fake social media accounts to monitor me, send me messages, and to spread lies about me by sending DMs and posting comments about me.

He did all of this while impersonating other people to attempt to frame others for his crimes. It was only a year ago that I learned my stalker’s true identity.

In addition to his direct attacks on me, my stalker communicated with various people to.

recording me in my home, using spyware to monitor all of my communications, harassing me and nearly everyone I knew and had regular interactions with, impersonating me, and attacking every part of my life from my business to my family and friends.

The sheriff’s detective told me in an email in April that I was the victim of the craziest stalking case she had ever worked and to never let anyone make me believe otherwise. The stalker worked his way into every aspect of my life, tracking my locations,

The stalking ordeal has been over for 5 months but sometimes it’s still so hard for me to wrap my head around it all. I try to not think about it as much as possible, but it’s hard to ignore because the impact on my life was catastrophic.

When your abuser destroys your mental health, sees you breaking down under the crushing weight of the abuse, then tells you the one who actually needs therapy is you.

Get more from Carissa Explains Nothing on Patreon Post-purity culture ramblings and some sexy selfies.

Now I’m posting long-form content and discussing things I prefer to test out on the patrons first. 😁

I have the *other* Patreon too. I’ll hide that link and discount somewhere in this thread. 😂
Main Patreon discount code is AUGUST

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Just pushing through a little rough patch (okay, a big rough patch but what else is new) and thought I’d make a discount code for the Patreons for anyone interested.

Originally this was a place where I put a bunch of pictures and talked about purity culture.

Just stubbornly refusing to give up ❤️

Obviously I’m not asking for your answers to every single question, just what stands out to you the most based on your own life experiences, education, previous experiences with people suffering abuse, etc.

Any thoughts? I’m processing a lot and curious what others would have to say.

6/6

What opinion do you have about people abandoning her? What sort of things would you advise she do to get help, to be heard, to get her bills paid, to maintain some kind of normalcy in life, to stay alive and as healthy as possible, and to heal when the crimes cease?

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Next part of the question:
What would you say to anyone in her life who won’t believe her? What would you say to the people who see her suffering and take advantage of her for various selfish reasons? What would you say to people who blame her for the crimes happening to her?

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her friendships, her family relationships, her dating life, her outlook on the future, her finances, her will to live, etc.? What ways would you expect she might behave that are different from what is normal for her? How might you see her personality change?

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threat always lingering so she is constantly on alert that it’s going to happen again at any time and she’s powerless to stop it), how do you expect this to impact her life? How do you expect it would impact her ability to work, to care for herself, her mental health, her perception of reality,
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I’m having some early morning thoughts and I’d like input. First of all, big CW for talk of SA. Don’t read further if this conversation will be triggering for you.

If a woman is experiencing a form of sexual abuse constantly for two years (the actual crime happening sometimes daily and the

1/6

It’s possible there might have been a plan to murder me at a donut shop… and other truly bizarre things that I survived.
I’m writing a little bit at a time about the stalking ordeal and mostly sharing it here:
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Netanyahu is a war criminal. Donald Trump rapes women.

Stop electing psychopaths.

If you know what a “sword drill” is… hi, friend. How goes the faith deconstruction?

THE MOST EMBARRASSING PICTURE OF ME IN EXISTENCE 🥴
Bless my stupid little heart

There isn’t actually a score. Women can share their experience with the man (good or bad) and give him either a red flag or a green flag.

The grim reaper was supposed to come get the old, racist, orange man… and he did.
Be more specific with your prayers next time.