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I'm constantly exposed to just how dysfunctional my family is and as someone who is generally like. extremely content, I have to be careful to remember my family is the exception rather than the rule

having the only healthy and happy relationship on my side of the family makes me feel a certain type of way

my biggest driving force as a person is so often my predisposition towards problem solving. my brain really dislikes unresolved issues, no matter how esoteric or outlandish they may be

at most I get clingy. and that's not even a bad thing

my bpd still acts up sometimes but that's okay. it's a relatively peaceful coexistence these days

filled with so much energy today and I do not know why. I'm all over the place

if I can give myself credit, I feel like my ability to read social situations is rather strong. it is bothersome when the words I form do not necessarily match those thoughts but it is better to try and blunder it a little than not try at all and miss out on potential happiness

learning self care has really done wonders for us. still very much in the mindset of wanting to do as much as we can for others but my own health is more of a consideration for me now and it saves my skin often

comes with the territory of being a bit more guarded with your personal stuff i think. i got this a bit as well partially bc lots of people are fairly open about their day to day and personal circumstances and if you aren't then it can seem more intimidating to the average person

yaaay

like I'll see reply chains and the like where one person is clearly uncomfortable and as someone who has been through the same thing (it went poorly to say the least) I'll just be a little. hmmmm

I'm not flirtatious with friends on principle but my circles do tend to include or be adjacent to people who are. I have no issue with that but sometimes I do wonder whether or not everyone involved is okay with it

ou. ouuuu

my ever-present issues are not getting enough sleep and looking at things I know have a chance of upsetting me

awa

headaches and irritability uuuuu

wanna be cuter

my social battery has definitely improved but I still crash hard sometimes

i want to understand everyone. or maybe just a few people

the consequences of my actions (I'm so tired)

we're really learning to spend a majority of our time off of here which is nice. there is always something fun to do instead

wishing you a swift recovery

repost muting would save me

what is the point. your energy could be spent in so many different ways that would be more productive

so often I see some stuff on here that's like. people getting really mad or passive aggressive about the most whatever topics

they still come with difficulties but they are appreciated by others. so I should appreciate them as well

it's nice to enjoy my own eccentricities at this point

I never really considered it until a year or so ago when a friend of mine was like "yeah so what happened there because it looked pretty bad" and I had to explain just kind of being put into a Situation in the worst-looking possible way. realistically I doubt many noticed or cared though

I was never the most active on other platforms either but I was well known enough in certain circles to the point where sometimes I wonder about whether or not there is a Perception of me held by people who have known me since then. I'm a very amicable person generally but Events occurred

you have to pass various checks to unlock this variant but I really do love being a stubborn ball of energy sometimes. it is what lies at my core