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just cant always manage it, but i wanna work on changing my mindset abt social media and that i dont HAVE to catch up every day and keep up w every single thing, so maybe following more is better? anyway i wanna try at least!

✨like one of these posts and i'll follow u if ur an ofmd account✨

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i wanna be more........ idk personable? or something, and at the beginning i was only following ppl i knew/recognized because i get overwhelmed easily, but maybe following more ppl will actually make me feel LESS pressured to keep up with everything? idk, but i wanna be friends i wanna follow ppl i

okay i think im gonna go take a little nap or play something offline, but can u pls like one of these posts if ur following me and im not following u and ur an (at least mostly) ofmd account???? i got way behind following ppl back and then kinda gave up so idek who is still active!!! 🖤✨

also are we doin kinktober this year? i should probably start thinking abt that

a little hair pulling so my rambling anxietyposting isn't the first thing on my page 😂

from last kinktober 💜
#ofmdnsfw #ofmdsims

4 screenshots of sim ed, posing in a black crop top and black leather pants

anyway thanks for reading this far, here are a few ed's i used for a tutorial that i don't think i ever posted here 🖤
i appreciate u listening (er, reading?) 🖤
#ofmdsims

degree?
anyway idk this thread got away from me, if u followed my personal twitter u probably know that i can get talky and oversharey when im anxious, and i guess this is just one of those times!!!!!!
maybe i should go back to weekly therapy for a while, i think that'd be a good first step.

exacerbating those feelings and making me remember every unkind/shitty/Problematic~ thing i have done, and it's like.. idk none of it is actually even that bad!!!!!!!! and that's not me anymore. and yet. i feel like i have to punish myself for it i think? and that i SHOULD be miserable to some

now i cry abt everything and am constantly scared of Getting In Trouble/making someone upset with me/looking weird or foolish.......... slfjskldfj i def think i have some (a lot?) rsd stuff going on, and there is a part of me that believes that i am just. not a good person? and lately weed has been

idk i'd just like to be not afraid of everything!!!!!!
i'd like just a little self confidence, maybe!!!
i think that would go a long way in helping my anxiety and depression, but man. that shit is hard and idk when i became so meek, when i was younger i didnt give a FUCK i had so much confidence?

and then i think abt quitting, like worrying this job is never going to feel right for me, even tho i desperately want to make it work!! i want this to be my career!!! but it's so precise and detailed and i am not a precise or detailed person and i constantly worry i'm just not a good fit 😔

i think i still am feeling uncomfortable and uncertain at work, too, like i still haven't relaxed into this new position even tho it's been like 7 months 💀 like i will go a few days thinking hmm maybe this is okay, and then i run into 1 (one) thing i dont get and that tanks my confidence again 😑

confident using rn. i've got a vape cart that is mostly cbd tho and that seems to be okay so far, and ive been taking my anxiety meds, it's just like. WEH!!! why can't i just tell my brain to knock it off, it is me????? 🧠❔

i've been humming with lowkey anxiety all morning and im not sure why, maybe just because it's sunday idk, and ive been having a lot of weed misadventures lately, it's been making me feel Bad and anxious and think abt every single thing i've done wrong in my life so that's not rly something i feel

who remembers this little guy?

#ofmdfanart #ourflagmeansdeath

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why r sim butts so cute???
#ofmdsims ❤️

from last kinktober ❤️
#ofmdnsfw #ofmdsims

Who wants Mermen? Winding down @ourflagctiys.bsky.social with linework from this year’s MerMay offering (I added some bubbles). MAKE ‘EM PRETTY!!!
Hi-res files here: ko-fi.com/s/febccc6365
#OFMDCTIYS #OFMDfanart

3 screenshots of sim ed telling sim stede about his Criminal career

stede, u knew this 😂 #ofmdsims
(stede's been tense lately because he got the overachiever trait and he's unemployed 😔)

✨ Another oldie ✨
#OurFlagMeansDeath #ofmd #OFMDfanart

thank you!!! 💜 i gotta work on internalizing/believing this stuff, because of course that is what i would say to someone else feeling this way, idk why i think i am the exception 😅

not a bad idea, lol, i DID just upgrade my phone plan to unlimited data 😂

perhaps i need to touch grass, as the kids say???????
anyway idk what the solution is, idk how ppl work fulltime and have time/energy for life, lmfao, i just wish i could relax a little!!!!!! wrt anything/everything lol wehhh again 😔

into my fandom time, lmfao, like if it's to the point where i'm feeling BAD abt it maybe i need to....... chill out? i hate feeling out of the loop, tho, but it's also like i don't have the energy or drive to stay in the loop it's just like....... weh!!!!!

i havent rly scrolled the timeline (or whatever it's called here... following feed?) in a WHILE and it makes me feel.... guilty? lmfao like how can i expect ppl to interact w me when i don't make an effort to interact w others?
but then also part of me is like maybe i dont HAVE to put Maximum Effort

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it's true!! 😌

i'm thinking abt making stede into a fairy instead of a spellcaster whenever i finally update my game 🤔🧚