storm strife

YouTube video by Sister Machine Gun - Topic Temptation

Listening to: youtu.be/O3C69Iwvl_Q

My upcoming fit in ffxiv when they unlock glam class restrictions

Sometimes I feel that it is the cruelest fact of the heart that it will always love again. It would be more Just if Everything ended at the dark climax. It wouldn't be as tragic if every part of them left all at once. Of course, it is these natures of the suffering that allow us to go on....

everything will always be lost. I thought I had made myself safe from attachment, but when I was my uncle's driver to chemo apppointments in 2018, I never felt closer to him than those weeks. I had also never spent so much time with him. Two days ago was his 7 year deathiversary.

I spent most of my early childhood raised by my grandparents because my parents were working. Then my grandma died of cancer suddenly when I was 4, and then grandpa got sick and started his decline as well. I never re-attached to anyone in that way, and I struggle to shake the assumption that

"Nothing is real, everything is under production"

Truly, this changed my entire outlook. Things are Possible again

That part in Blame! where he gets incapacitated and has to regenerate for 14 years. That happened to me in real life.

Ahaha I do! This is actually the mobile setup, I have a desktop elsewhere for heavier processing. This is a cricut cnc plotter that I have used for metal engraving & embossing, paper & vinyl cutting, and drawing. It can be run from the tablet and I put everything else away.

A tablet sitting on the cricut as a stand; a Bluetooth keyboard and mouse; Artaud's Theater and Its Double; an architects scale ruler; miscellaneous supplies; glasses

Spent today setting up a Zettelkasten (note taking system) in Obsidian. I think im going to need a format for including "visual" notes on paintings, etc. I want to cancel all social obligations between now and January to work on a foundation from the backlog. I cannot go into a deep enough isolation

vibrant checker with textures

☿ {mixed media}

Well it WAS going well.... and then I unevenly shrunk it with primer. Guess im just gonna have to do prints after all

Birdnesting on the back of a test stitch

Me grabbing the sewing machine tension controls by the throat (literally a cat being grabbed after knocking over a flowerpot)

Portland, OR, if you're losing SNAP benefits I just saw Heretic Coffee on SE 28th will give you a free breakfast, no questions asked, starting on Nov 1st, just ask for the SNAP breakfast

Cut wooden dowels next to hand carved stamps

Early in the process of staining the dowels black-- i know it looks awful

Eating an oatmeal chocolate chip cookie while the stain sets

getting dysphoric because I will never have only 2fps for doing physical gags

If I was a clown girl my line would be "Yes, it honks."

The number one most important thing you need in an artist studio is a couch. You don't need a bed or chair or easel. And yes you can get it from the bins but watch out

8 weeks post-op :3

YouTube video by Bizkitpark Rishloo - Feathergun In The Garden Of The Sun

Listening to this today: youtu.be/TBYOgS7USGk?...

....It DID feel good to stretch that canvas but now my scars are aching. Excited to sand the primer layers....

Just stretched a canvas for the first time in nine years. I was sloppy at it when I was 20 and now im sloppy cause I overcorrected. Dudes rock (/s)

Oh my godddd that second one took 5 hours to carve

stamp block carving, early stages

amazing what working in the sunlight can do

Yes I watch reels no i don't want to

Daily warm up

For days, horrible mechanical grinding sounds have been coming from the church. I even got a recording of it but it's audio only so I cant upload it

changed my handle, figured it was time to upgrade the old one.

Bonus

Looking for new shapes