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yes i play graves yes everyone wants to kill me . Little do they know ill kms first

playing deadlock is like rejection sensitivity exposure therapy

i also have all the devil may cry games and have been meaning to play them but i dont know if i should like. go in order or if theres one i should start from

i work today but i think i really need to get myself back into some games or something. something new. i might play alan wake since thats in my library? i wanna play the new aitsf spinoff but thats 40 damn dollars LOL

i dont really know what to say on here ive done so little recently

EVERYONE GET MORE EMPATHETIC AND KINDER NOW!!!!

finally started playing deadlock and while its really hard with my hand issues right now to play some characters/play for a long session its really fun. i missed having a game to play that felt like early overwatch

ive decided i dont really care about making drawings of myself/my persona as androgynous or consistent cause i am neither of those things, but generally theres a few features that tend to make it me no matter what (circular glasses, librarian ass fits, fish bone motifs, etc).

recent self portrait

maybe i shouldn't be this open but i haven't been fully diagnosed yet but i am being treated for bipolar ii now by my psych. looking back now it makes a lot of sense

my 25th birthday is coming up too. i fully expected myself to be dead or at least dying by now. i want to say i made it this far because i didn't think i would.

otofuckingmachi una song maybe ...

i'm running fully on fumes right now, i barely have any drive to do anything and only a couple things really give me joy right now. so having that one consistent thing to continue for is really nice.

this is me being genuine, i've found some things to live for, and i hope they last.

its nice to find things to live for.

ummm who want me :)

ooouh i wanna do the valentines day ffxiv event but my anxiety is so bad playing with people i dont know ... auuhhhhhh

touhou dooodle

love to get lab work back and seeing that half of the results are listed as "abnormal"

i have something going maybe...... ???

specifically in regards to how gender was always attracted to the opposite so if i wanted a gay t4t couple in my game i had to make someone the wrong gender and i always felt awfulllll

can i be real i nearly started crying bc it was always so evil for me to have to ask trans friends i was putting in the game to have to pick a gender im so glad i dont have to do that

Okay now officially no company has an excuse to not make nonbinary an option in their character creator gender select if fucking Nintendo can do it

WOKE IS ALIVE (just watched the tomodachi life direct)

might not make it but i wanna try !!! i need to motivate myself to try to do Something

fuck it i have a personal goal to myself and its to get a song out for valentines day regardless of theme

like damn i just wanna make a catchy tune ....

not having motivation for anything and then having music block sucks ass actually !!!!!