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haha

came on here bc I feel insecure and like everyone hates me LMAO. I got ren faire tomorrow tho so I don't rllt for time to worry abt that.

oh it's been awhile since I've been on this acct. hi

had to remake my promo post bc I deleted the other one in a moment of weakness

I'm forcing myself to try & act normal but I have been so terrified socially every single interaction the past few days wtf is wrong with me

still ongoing but I'm trying to force myself to interact w ppl anyways even tho it's scary. if u actually hate me plz just block bro.

having an everyone hates anna moment :)

like idk I'm not like... rlly sex-repulsed I can look at / read n s f w fine without being triggered but irl I'm like 😶😶😶

idk why I'm realizing this on a random Wednesday at 7am but I think part of my weird relationship w sex besides sa also has to do with how my ex would sexualize the shit out of EVERYTHING

ty aedan 🖤 I adore u too

ty kelpie pie🖤 🫂

ty blakey...🫂 my brain is just evil :(

like I feel my soul curling inside myself

ty 🫂 I just feel like I'm not liked & ik it'd just my brain being stupid but orz

dabs w claude to cope

me when I'm chilling and suddenly I'm overcome w memories and feelings of despair of my dad's arrest / charges and I'm like. huh. maybe I am actually traumatized.

I've cried so much today & I've been such a cunt to everyone

I fucking hate men.

woaajjhhh I had a dizzy spell.... wat the hell dat was nuts...

I still feel like shit but at least it's Claudes bday in Japan already so the art is flooding my tl.

ty🫂

I had so many nightmares last night and usually they're either work nightmares or just random scary bullshut but I had multiple ones revolving around almost every personal traumatic thing that's happened to me and I barely slept I feel so fucked up & I can't even call into work today

maybe I'm just meant for surface level relationships with most ppl.

the less people know about me the less it can be used against me / stuff spoken about me behind my back.

I'm not built for groupchats I'm not built for dms but for a secret 3rd thing idk

I'm feeling kinda lonely recently like. friendship interaction wise but I've also I kinda prefer keeping to myself. more peaceful that way.

ty🫂🖤

physically restraining myself from asking if multiple ppl hate me