RakerBlaze

Road sign, two directions: "doing what you need to do", and "doing what you want to do", car underneath between the two directions upside down and on fire, "ADHDers somehow doing neither"

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I can't even begin to describe how awful I feel not being able to be the entertainer I want to be; I mean... its my full-time job right now and its my only source of income. That all being said, I'm not sure I'll even have a paycheck this month. It sucks and there's nothing I can really do... (5)

I don't feel as though I can do the things that make me feel productive; I've had very little desire to stream and it kills me. The last thing I want is to show up to a livestream with little to no energy, and given how low my viewer count has been lately, it shows that the audience can tell (4)

While I won't get into the personal details of my summer trauma, I'll at least talk about how it's affected me over the last couple of years because I feel as though I'm in a very dark place at the moment. I'm not enjoying the things I normally do, I'm isolating myself and dealing with paranoia (3)

It's currently summer which means some of my most repressed and damaging trauma is coming back to me like it did last year. I remember when a friend of mine had helped me realize why the summer affected me in such a dramatic way, and it left me with more questions than answers (2)

Hello to anyone who reads this.

I realise I'm really not good with social media since I haven't posted on here in ages... but since I remembered that I have an account on here, I may as well use it to write down my thoughts and feelings (1) #mentalhealth #creative #ptsd #neurodivergent

Oh heck I haven't logged into this platform for ages. I'd heard that you'd shouted us out for the raid stuff but I had no idea you'd done it here too. I know I'm very late, but bigg thankies and it was an absolute pleasure to raid into your stream 🧡 please remember to do the hydrate stuff ✨

hellooo

omg December got me messed up this month 😭 I'm so sorry, everyone, I know I've already missed at least 2 streams recently and I deeply apologise. Will be back on Friday 🧡

Ello everyone! Quick update: I will not be streaming today. Recently, I've been dealing with a lot of physical and mental health issues, and I think it's best if I just let myself rest a lil bit while I recover. Will be back soon 🧡

I'm so glad my community is honest with me like that or I'd sob sobbingly, especially if a new viewer drops in and they think I'm so unprofessional (I mean... I am a bit but shhh)

This is honestly amazing! It reminds me of all the artwork I used to see when I was a teen. These art pieces give me a feeling of nostalgia and I'm here for it!

Thank you to everyone who stopped by the recent 24 hour stream! Can't thank you lot enough for sticking with me and supporting the stream. And massive thank you to the maniacs that stayed the full 24 hours! 🧡 You guys are crazy! But thank you all for an amazing stream and I'll see you on Friday

Deepest apologies for last stream, everyone. Internet went a bit wonky and so we had to end early... BUT... 24HR STREAM STARTS SOON! see you all at around 12:30pm GMT for nothing but chaos!!! 🧡🧡🧡

really looking forward to the 24 hour stream on Saturday. I still remember doing the last one for 500 followers, and now look at us! It's kinda insane how we've reached 1000 followers in such a short amount of time, but I'm so excited!

I swear, this time of the year is so draining. I feel like all I wanna do is sleep 🥲

@masquexo.bsky.social Welcome to Claire's. May I take your order? 👀

Hey everyone! Thank you so much for all the birthday wishes last stream 🧡🧡🧡
Now it's time for our upcoming 24 HOUR STREAM!! Exact date is to be announced, but be on the lookout on both Bluesky and Twitch for updates!!!

Take care all 🧡🧡🧡

I guess feeling so out of place for all my life partly led me to where I am now. It's interesting that a simple dream can open all of that up to you. It's like a mini therapy session ✨

I had an interesting dream recently where my bio family were almost acting like they were half aware of my existence, or just treating me in odd ways.

I have a very unstable relationship with pretty much all my bio family (not that it's all their doings, ofc, but I've always felt a bit alienated

Does anyone else here remember their dreams? Usually, when I remember one, I tend to analyse it to figure out what it might mean. I feel like dreams can tell us a lot about how we're truly feeling, even when we don't realise how we're actually feeling.

Big thank you to everyone for another amazing week of tomfoolery! See you all again on Friday 🧡🧡🧡

I don't know what to post so I'll just say...

heehee 🤌

It makes me bigg sadd 🥲

I'm so sorry for no stream today. I was restless as heck last night and couldn't get sleep but then of course got tired IN THE MORNING 😭 I swear, I need to figure out a way to combat my sleeping issues. I PROMISE I'll be live tomorrow 🥲

I want to thank you all for the support 🧡 I recently purchased a new mattress which should arrive soon-ish (probably a couple weeks) and it's all thanks to you lot 🧡 I'm so lucky to have an amazing community with you lot in it, and I'm so so grateful for everything you've done for me. Thank you 🧡

No stream today because it's way too warm for me and it's making me feel aaaaa 🥲

Really sorry for no stream today. Sleep has been messed up by both the sudden wave of summer heat and some other mental health issues that have been an absolute pain. I'll be back tomorrow. Really sorry, everyone 🧡🧡🧡

Hey everyone.

Sadly, I'll need to take a break today, but I'm expecting to be back tomorrow. Just not in great shape today.

take care 🧡

Hey, everyone! Hope you're all doing alright 🧡
Just wanted you lot to know that I've decided to take Monday and Tuesday off too. I feel like I really just need some time off to sort myself out. I'll be back on Friday, though 🧡🧡🧡