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só mais uma noite assim pufavô nunca pedi muito

“só a sua caixa torácica que tá muito tensa, libera ela”

profe, ela tá tensa desde que eu nasci, esse é o grande problema 🤣 se eu conseguisse liberar, minha vida seria outra

tô precisando de mais umas noites assim pra dar reset na minha mente

seriously considering dropping out of this one but then i think of the 2 months i’ve wasted on the routine…

ok i gotta be honest this might be the last circus presentation that i do bc the anxiety that i usually get and the dip in my overall mood is just not worth it

WAIT A MINUTE
someone is more autistic than me bc they wrote "routine" as an answer to this question

(i am only kidding with this "look at how autistic i am" and "more autistic than me" ok? calma gente eh meme)

"making cohesive and coherent vocal sounds which make sense to people around you"

this is how autistic i am
right now in our meeting, the speaker asked a question: "what pops into your mind when you think of Speaking?", and used the app mentimeter...
literally almost everyone answered: communication, expression, interaction
and did you know what i answered?

ansiosissima pra chegar em casa e me afundar em pizza e penny dreadful

preciso mt de fim de semana criando raizes na cama

i just wanna sleep for days

i need logical proof tho

começando o dia com mais um meltdown 👍

i feel hated
i feel misplaced
i feel disconnected
i feel alone

it's so fucking triggering to teach online classes i can't even anymore

im exhausted i wanna die

honestly my brain has already melted for today

what worries me is that this feels a hell lot like it used to feel a few weeks before i’d try to un4l1ve, so…

and i don’t wanna d1e, i swear. i’m just scared of how things used to turn out.

ok, i didn’t KNOW what i was dealing with. now i do. but is that enough?

when ALL of your self-regulation protocols fail, nothing seems to work, and you just keep having meltdown after meltdown… is it time yet to consider that this may be an existential crisis? or a bigger crisis?

WHY THOUGH

still not feeling good

acho que hoje só penny dreadful me regula, e olhe lá

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“a borracha morre apagando seus erros”

can i give up on this w/o pissing a lotta ppl off

i just started crying LMAO

it’s just not possible today… damn, everybody is gonna be looking at me, and not in a “this is a show” style, just UGH………

i created this routine to try and fit in into the whole spectacle and it’s so not me, which is kinda bothering me a little. but the only way i could do this was if i were faded into the background. how to do this in a solo number? well, methinks i found a way.

they ALL showed up 🤣

the pain of never truly belonging anywhere, does it ever just… go away? #neurodivergent