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I really hope so too ♥️

Thank you so much. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. There are times where I see people trying to help me with this on here, and I just cry out of happiness, relief, and knowing that people really do care about me and want to help. 🥹

(21) PTSD when there’s no guarantee any of the treatments will work.

(20) to focus on finding a provider who can do the surgery and fundraising for all of the expenses if I need to, is because the surgery is done once I do it. I never have to do it again verses having to constantly fight with insurance and a bunch of other things just to try to get treatment for the

(19) anyhow I didnt mean for this post to be so long, it’s just really complicated. To clarify, I can legally pay out of pocket as long as I find providers who are NOT contracted with Medicaid. so I can fundraise for non Medicaid providers if I need to. and the reason why i feel the best option is

(18) I still hold out hope, and I still look into things when I find potential treatment options, but it’s pretty damn hopeless. The system is so broken that no amount of “thinking outside the box” to try to get help got me anywhere. It was always a dead end.

(17) then it will come my way at some point. But if not, then it is what it is and I won’t be able to get the help I need.

(16) get the medical care I need, etc. and after so many years of trying, I was utterly exhausted from it. I had no energy left to make even one more phone call, or to do anything else to try to get help. I was beyond burned out. so I finally just said fuck it, if I’m meant to get the help I need

(15) to give those injections was several hours away from where I live.
so that’s the recurring combo of issues I always run into. it’s either insurance, can’t legally pay out of pocket, have no money to pay for a hotel room, have no car, no one who can take time off of work to take me to

(14) I’ve also looked into getting injections in my neck to treat the PTSD because there’s evidence it works really well for some people. well then I found out that just 1 injection would cost $4,000. and I would have to do it more than once a year. And the only provider I could find who was trained

(13) so I can’t switch my insurance at all, and I also can’t even move away to be closer to the healthcare I need because again, I will lose my doctor and then there goes all my access to my meds.

(12) works. and those meds are some of the only meds that have adequately treated my severe OCD. before I got on them, I was having compulsions up to 13 hours per day. you couldn’t pay me to live like that ever again.

(11) if I do then I will lose my doctor and all other access to the clinic I go to. He’s one of the very few doctors who will prescribe the meds I need because they are controlled substances. Most doctors won’t prescribe them at all or if they will they won’t prescribe the dose that actually

(10) so just accessing therapy has been incredibly frustrating because there’s no therapists where I live who are available and take my insurance. I have also tried to switch my insurance just so I could have better access to the healthcare I need and I can’t even switch my insurance because

(9) so TMS sadly didn’t work out at all like I hope it would. and then there’s the countless phone calls and emails I have left for therapists just to try to get EMDR in person because I tried EMDR online and it wasn’t effective. I have been on waitlists to see an EMDR therapist for 5+ years.

(8) I didn’t see how I could possibly raise thousands of dollars just for 1 week of my very first TMS sessions only to have to come back over and over again and somehow find a way to constantly have fundraisers that would cover the cost of the TMS sessions in the long run

(7) do what they call “maintenance sessions”, because the effects of TMS usually don’t last forever. they told me I could do TMS and I may have to come back within just a few months to have more sessions done. so it felt impossible to do it.

(6) who the hell has $10,000???? And thats not counting the transportation costs, having to pay to stay in a hotel for a week, buy food, etc.
the cost of it alone felt completely out of my reach. and then what really made it feel pointless to me was that lots of people who do TMS have to

(5) so at that point I was fucked. there was nothing I could do to access it. and even if I could pay out of pocket for it, they said just 1 week of what they call “accelerated TMS” which is basically having multiple sessions every day for a week..cost $10,000.

(4) they need if they are on Medicaid. it doesn’t matter even if Medicaid won’t cover it. if they won’t cover it, your screwed.

(3) and found out that while my insurance would cover it for depression, they wouldn’t cover it for PTSD. so then I thought okay well maybe I could just have fundraiser to help raise funds so I could do it…well turns out it’s illegal in my state for anyone to pay out of pocket for anything

(2) if it would help. first I could never access it because for years, there was no TMS center for 100s of miles. then when I found out a TMS center was finally opening an hour away from where I live, I got so excited because I thought I was finally going to get the help I needed. but then I called

(1) to further explain the situation I am in, these are all of the reasons why I haven’t been able to access the treatment options that are left for me try:

It’s the damn insurance. either no one will take it, or my insurance won’t cover the services I need. I tried to get TMS treatment to see

(6) you may have left me positive and comforting messages if I hadn’t disabled it. I hope that in the future I won’t be so afraid and will be able to find the courage to not disable it so you guys can leave me messages that are helpful ♥️

(5) anyhow, I am just thankful that there are people out there who believe me and that I’m not over exaggerating the situation i am in. I also wanted to add that I still have disabled comments out of fear of someone coming along and making hurtful/ignorant comments. that being said, I know some of

(4) I have always felt a lot of shame for how I ended up with PTSD because society is cruel and doesn’t always understand how some people end up with PTSD.

(3) it’s more common for neurodivergent people to develop PTSD from things that the average population isn’t typically affected by. finding that research has helped me to be more accepting of what my PTSD originates from and to accept myself for who I am.