carl 🧡🤍🩷

ao3 is down and NO ONE TOLD ME 😩😩😩

me please!

one of the most
positive memories i have from childhood is when i had a sleepover on the night that the first hannah montana episode premiered. the level of unexpected joy im getting from everything recently has made me so giddy and is so needed 🥰🥰🥰

i think that when our brains are used to being in that unhealthy space, it’s more comfy to stay there and continue to be triggered because it’s familiar and what we know. healing feels weird because it’s unfamiliar!! i totally get what you mean, sending you some good vibes 🫂 🫂

my special interests have overwhelmed me, will report back in 2-4 days

also how today feels:

i also always choose leah!! queer af and also it’s so easy to give her goat cheese and salads 🥰

i think about this moment far too often

all i want is la mudanza at the super bowl thanks bye

the fact that i can’t shower with my headphones on is a crime against myself and all autistic people everywhere

debi tirar más fotos was in my top five albums last year and i am so excited for benito AHHH this album was incredible and he completely deserved the win!!! spanish isn’t my first language but i speak it at work all day and am working towards fluency and this album is a part of that journey and 🥰🥰🥰

sitting at a bar on my break while the democracy crumbles in MN and both my restaurants try to justify making its employees come in tomorrow during an actual state of emergency in dc. i’m looking for a silver lining here but im just not seeing any

i’m so so sorry to hear that 🫂 thinking of you and your loved ones

modern american politics consists of experts patiently explaining why something insane that people are talking about could never happen, followed by that exact thing happening

one of the places i work is close to the arena in dc where the PWHL played today and holy hell did the lesbians come out and support 🫡 i got absolutely destroyed at the bar because we were so busy

the whispered count in at the beginning of the prophecy gets me every time

i definitely have to be careful that i align my hips properly (i sleep on my side also like a rotisserie chicken), but when i do that properly i feel better! i also have a weighted blanket that is small & meant for laps but i put it on my chest and that helps the urge to roll around everywhere

a while ago i actually bought one of those pregnancy pillows and it is now my favorite thing ever/ keeps my hips from screaming at me when i wake up in the morning!

thinking about how tloas (the track) is such a bittersweet song at its core and in some ways reminds me of all the happy/sad songs that came before her

sinking into my special interests today to feel better and honestly it’s exactly what i need right now. my body and mind feel so tired, both individually and separately. i wish i could crawl in a cave and sleep through the next 10 years but alas i must survive and fight for change

one of my regulars is a journalist in the white house press room (works for an intl news outlet) and we know each other well enough that i was explaining PAlor to them a little!! the way i got their attention on it has me hopeful that the next time we talk they’ll have some opinions to share 👀

came back to this post to say that a forehead zit has made its home on my face just during the duration of my shift 🫠🫠🫠

the biggest lie they told us was that pimples stop at 18

i feel like i have whiplash from the queer joy/special interest fixation vibes i had at the start of my day to fully being brought back to the reality we all live in. gonna end the night trying to get back to a happy medium place if possible. hope everyone is as okay as they can be ❤️

i do find it funny that my sous chef knows all about it because “my girlfriend watches it” ok

alert alert alert i can feeeeeeel the hyperfixation for HR entering my body and all i want to do is talk about it and you know who doesn’t want to hear about it? the stuffy old men im taking care of at the bar at work 😠

update i’m on ep 5 and completely sucked in

honestly, i can’t wait to get on your level because i’m currently in a fixation drought of sorts and am honestly hopeful for the chokehold it could have on me! i’ve seen all the neurodivergent queer joy exploding on this all and i just want to join in 🥹 i think i’m finally watching tonight though!!

yes!!! i feel you!! it’s happened to me with various taylor related things before too — our brains are wild sometimes 🫠 i hilariously also just got stoned for the first time in a while in preparation to start watching tonight so we’ll see how this goes!!

for any other autistic folk out there — my PDA going crazy with heated rivalry and its pissing me off so much. my brain has somehow viewed watching it as a demand and all i want is to sink into some new gay content and be caught up w/the pop culture but my brain is pushing harddd against it