jade

feeling blue

i guess no studying today. i will just go with the flow from now and no planning shit and just do what i gotta do.

it's my way of being selfish. but giving up on society was never a good choice to live peacefully but to LET GO.

“i would rather die than have others know my pain” that was what i thought by giving people weird ideas about me and to die out of embarrassment and let people abandon me. but i know that being an embarrassment would give other people pain instead of me and yet i did it anyway.

i was studying and all my questions in my head gone just like that...

i cant believe all my confusions were answered if i actually studied

if I've never been in love that means i can expect my first love right? hehe

why i feel like everyone blamed me without understanding me? but what's weirder is why i feel okay people dont understand me?

i don't think i can trust him

was i mistaken admiration with love? was my first love not a love but just admiration like hee do to yu rim? cause i also always wanted to be his rival and the way i hate him after i knew him in different light too..

im a chatterbox.....

i told everything about him to my mom..

that was a cool way of saying hi lol

...thanks to people who are always by my side, they make it less hurt.

i wanna run away whenever that happens and break other people’s trusts, just like how those who broke me. it's so hard to be fair when you had been treated unfairly cause it shattered your heart that makes your head is clouded and your eyes are blinded but...

now that i know the truth, it pains me physically whenever i try to put my heart out even when i try to fool my mind that it's not the truth. my chest hurts when i try to be hopeful that something or someone will not deceive me.

nah gini dong lagunya, ga galau

he's still warm yet his hand is so cold

goodness why am i so anxious?

am i that innocent?

it's funny. im bad at explaining myself but i keep trying to explain everything

im enjoying watching time travel drama cause i keep imagining if only i could do that too i would make myself to never fall in love with that man or anyone that deeply when i knew nothing about the world yet

im in a crowd and the drama is at kissing scene, why is it always like this? making me so anxious for no reason

i can wait

i need to pee but im at station.. fuck this

i really hate waiting.. if it wasn't because of smartphone idk what mess i would do when i am waiting

he is not even that handsome so why did i.. damn

i want iceeeee

minji is really the coolest girl ever

i think if i were the same age as my dad i couldn't be his close friend cause he is too awesome but i probably will befriend my mom cause she is so caring with everyone