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a new doctor.

when does that happen? because it feels like i get moments. and nothing more. im totally catastrophising but when do i stop feeling like im stuck in tunnel vision when everyone talks about a light at the end of it.

anyways. im okay. just. stressed. and unmedicated while i schedule with

im writing so much music through all of this though so. i guess thats cool. i fully understand that feelings aren’t permanent. and that i control THEM and not the other way around. but every day it just gets harder to fucking breathe. yeah ill be okay. but—

i dont want to rely on other people to make sure im standing upright. i dont want to be struggling. i dont want to be weak. or a failure. im just. im fucking tired. and some days im not sure i want to wake up. because when im sleeping, im safe from the anxiety and heaviness of it all.

fall further into my depression because im alone so much. im so stuck. and ig i just needed to rant somewhere trusted and unbiased. theres just so much uncertainty. and im fucking terrified. i want to be able to provide myself a firm foundation.

for work, ive found nothing. yet i look here, “home”. and ive got job opportunities with great pay left and right. i feel nauseous thinking about it because i dont wanna fail. or prove everyone right ig. i also dont want to live here. but when i think about going back i just feel like im gonna

so. i made a huge life change in april of 2024. something ive always dreamed of. moved to wa, away from my home, and family other than my dad, whom at the time i had a weak relationship with.

everyone here was adamant that id be back. that i couldnt do it.

and now. after 7 months of searching -

guys its THE aot manga panel

ever since i left ive just wanted to go back and sit here. the peace and utter childlike joy i felt being surrounded by such beautiful nature was humbling and jarring but in the best way.

IF YOU SEE THIS DO IT!

name: morgab
pronouns: she/her
height: 5’3
sexuality: bisexual
sign: leo
piercings: 2
tattoos: 1
fav color: dark green
fav drink: dr pepper/water
fav food: cheese. all and any.
fav animal: orca/frog
mbti: infp

me when christmas

Jurassic Park holds up so well. Why did I shriek when the velociraptor showed up behind Laura Dern like I haven’t seen this movie 40 times.

may i interest you in an old acapella singing video?? please enjoy?

did the bluesky roast thing and im crying

is it? 👀👀🤣

the boy

shmork alam is smoke alarm in an australian accent

putting the effort forward to mend it. regardless of my temptations im remaining committed to my healing.

my grandparents moved, im feeling alone, and honestly so wildly uncomfortable words cant describe it. but im going to meetings, keeping patience when i crave drastic changes, and not smoking to numb it.

negative : my relationship with food is on a downhill climb, but im communicating that and

with sobriety comes an ability to show myself appreciation where its due. and also to hold myself accountable in other places.

balance in our own dissection of ourselves is so important. a positive for a negative if you will.

positive : i have the ability to accept change today.

at least im making money moves i guess

i cant pick one im sorry
if you see this post a concert photo you took

SIO

im so. tired. and its cold in montana so my bones hurt. i need to be in the tropics.

welp time to forget this place exists for an extended period of time again. i havent been very active on any socials lately, just due to a lot of life happening. i never posted this cuz its a c a p e l l a but fuck it we ball enjoy

anyways.

also cause apparently im just on one right now, friendly reminder that forgiveness is not for the person/organization you are forgiving.

its for yourself.

nobody suffers the consequences of your resentments more than you. stop trying to carry a bag of rocks up a mountain. put it down.

judged, stay quiet. don’t speak ill, instead give them grace tenfold. you may look crazy, but so did jesus. god will fight for us with his righteous anger. and only his could be. our world is filled with hatred, anger, sin. be different, work towards a life of love, understanding, and peace.

but being the better person through it is always the best choice. Romans 12:20 says

If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him a drink. For by doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.

meaning, if someone is slandering your name, if your character is being—

anyways. i went to church yesterday for the first time in months and it was a beautiful reminder that god really does give us only what we can handle.

silence, over retaliation. if someone hurts you, never seek revenge, instead extend grace. not to say boundaries dont exist, of course they do—