Nick Butler

A screenshot showing a bank balance of $85.86, with 0 in savings.

bills for the biopsy and other medical stuff is hitting and I have $85 in my account.

I also have meds to get and desperately need groceries.

I have no right to ask for help, but if you can, it'd be so appreciated.

ko-fi.com/tinychaosmouse

New crib I built in Valheim with @eggchan.bsky.social. Been forever since I did some building. I'm really happy with the porch. It's got some nice depth too it and the upper balcony is both functional and stylish imho!

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This Sunday, join us for the first installment of Shiv's show: Parallel Play! This show is to explore the magic of Solo TTRPGs! Our first month includes the creator of Missing Month @classicalglaiza.com playing alongside Shiv. Sunday March 15 at 7:30 EST/4:30 Pacific
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Happening tomorrow! Tomorrow!!!

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Heavy Steps On Hollow Ground by Chris Bissette Green Room meets From Dusk Till Dawn

Heavy Steps On Hollow Ground is Green Room meets From Dusk Till Dawn. Your gig goes very wrong, and there's very little you can do about it.

https://loottheroom.itch.io/heavysteps

Let's schedule a time to talk. Add me on Discord @ Fallonmyblade.

May you find your way out, but I hope that it is safely. I hope that it leads to happier feelings. I hope that if and when you get there, its good enough that moments like this become a bit fuzzier and emotions seem worth the trade off for these darker times.

I hope you take care of yourself, Mouse

But my friend, I am here with you. We can play Alice in Chains or something in the background and giggle at the irony that the theme song is so on the nose. (the joke is the song is called "Down in a hole"). So if you choose to allow yourself to keep waking up, keep feeling. I am here with you.

But the real escape is one that leads to joy, fulfillment, and acceptance I think. We should not have to work so hard to obtain those things. I know it can feel impossible. Lord knows this is exactly where I was yesterday. I'm not quite out of that hole, I may not even have found a foothold yet.

The point is that we are in pain, and we need help. I will say we cause I assume that you are in a similar enough position to me that I can make that claim, if that's ok. If not, sorry in advance. So I hope that things improve, that you find your numbness and it carries you out of this duldrum.

That may have no value in your darkest moments. I find myself thinking that nothing matters all the time when I get into these spaces. I won't just go "not uh, you are worth it! Smile!" Like so many people. Logically, I know you know that deep down. That's not the point.

The not wanting to wake up feelings? The feeling like a burden constantly?

I am there with you.

Looking from the outside though, everyday you choose to get up and keep going, even if it is simply to talk about these feelings is another day you may have made somebody else's burden lighter.

Finally, and hopefully obvious

Any claim of “(method) is the correct way to (result)”

Is instantly bullshit

It’s art. Experiment!

Once again - show me proof that you've helped these folks - or fuck, anyone! It's a cold world! - by at least $20 and I will create a ttrpg adventure, a short story, edit your novella, make you digital line form art. For $100, I will make you a piece of physical 8x10 wall art and ship it

Screenshot from Guacamelee. The villainess is laughing and she says "lol, double entendres!"

I like her.

Get Guacamelee! It's on sale for 3 bucks! Fun metroidvania with a cool combo system and LUCHADORE SLAMMING!

It's international women's day. Sonya and a myriad of other women artists deserve your attention today and everyday.

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Tons of relationship, romance, and friendship themed ttrpgs!

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If a game isn't enjoyable from just interacting with the rules, you need to go back to the drawing board.

If I wanted a rewarding experience, I'd do volunteer work. So get out there and make me have a good time!

Well, then I am surely rooting for you, bud.

We can certainly agree on that. Though I wager faster is *usually* better due to most ttrpgs just being fucking boring mechanically.

Of course I and a few other devs are trying to change that with mixed results.

Oh, but I definitely WILL say, better, faster, and more fun.

Also some measurable metric, because fucking nerds can suck it.

Truly, I wish I felt *less* valid about this. Thank you for your support though. <3

Thanks, homie. Your words are much appreciated.

The debt keeps accumulating and my hope keeps diminishing.

Anyway. Sorry for ranting.

It makes me think of people making reels about how much they'd create if they didn't have to work and I'm just watching YouTube in bed hoping the sleep apnea will finally catch up with me. I've made next to nothing in this time and most of the time its because... what's the point?

Truly, I miss my ex, our dogs, the kids, having a ttrpg table irl, and friends to go out and do stuff with outside of that. Having a stable income, my own space, etc. I technically only had thay because of my ex, but it felt real. I felt more accomplished than now.

Now? Well... I'm breathing.

But what it really did was further aggravate my feelings if ineptitude and isolation. As much as I should feel thankful for this safe fall, I feel like I have nothing without it and I am not capable of getting myself out of this hole and have no one to pull me out.

She means we'll, but she's a "I HAVE TO FIX THIS" person and can't understand the concept of non action even when begged for it. So she pushed and pushed and it escalated and we got into an argument after I tried telling her to leave me alone. It wasn't super heated or anything, but it sucked.