hilja

danmei has effectively cured my year-long reading slump let's go

when you put 40h+ into a game within the past two weeks just to realise there's a bug that makes it impossible to finish

i am devastated T_T

i have peaked. someone gifted me a sub because my message made them laugh 😌💅

and all i've eaten so far today is a few twix chocolate bars

yesterday i literally only ate one and a half leftover pizza slices and an ice cream cone

the the day before i ate… two leftover pizza slices and some ice cream

and the day before that i ate… four pizza slices wowwwwww

my appetite sucks, i've eaten so little these past few days i'm lowkey kinda scared…

the struggle of being AFAB and wanting to be feminine in a femboy way, not a girl way…

Happening now!

the 90s are back, baby, and so is Jet Lag

also with the help of my coach/counsellor(idk what they're called) i cleaned up my apartment a little and ran the dishwasher

few years ago i used to make these shitpost edits for fun, but i haven't done that for like… two years. so the fact i even opened up premiere and did some editing is 100% a win

first time taking my ADHD meds after a couple weeks of not taking them:

i made an impulsive purchase of over 100€ BUT!!!! I also cleared up my workspace and did some video editing on premiere pro for fun, so i count it as a win

📅✨Mark your calendars for the return of Drawfee Variety Hour! We'll be raising money for Trans Lifeline, June 7th 2pm ET-8 on Twitch!

Would've been so sad to spend days at the beach not being able to swim

LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO

My period started just in time that it will pretty much be done by the time I go on vacation😎😎😎

i haven't even met sylus yet i'm very very scared for my poor heart when i do

Rafayel from Love and Deepspace.

last week i finally downloaded love and deepspace just to see what the hype was about, thinking it wouldn't be for me

but uh oh guys… i might love rafayel. why did nobody tell me there was a playful artist in this game, like bro he's just like me fr. but like 1000% more confident and bratty-

you'd think realising i'm genderfluid would make me question my gender less, but in fact, it seems to make me have a gender crisis every time my gender fluctuates… even though… that's literally what being genderfluid means…

every time i'm feeling more feminine i have this small crisis of "omg am i lying to myself about being nonbinary" and i always have to remind myself that: hilja, you're genderfluid. sometimes you might feel like your AGAB. you're still nonbinary you overthinking idiot

i had the most traumatizing dream bro…
i got married to my dad🤮

then some lazers came in and killed everyone, but it's mainly that marriage part that i'm disturbed about.

what i am hoping is the reaction to this:

New York City baybeeee best city in the world!

yesterday was a great day. i saw my best friend in person again, went to see kurtis conner's show, and to top it all off, when i came home i watched jet lag hide and seek across NYC

after a couple of months of being in a low-energy and motivation state i really needed a day like that :,)

jet lag the game season 13 except it’s postcards!

when you've run out of ADHD meds but lack the motivation to go to the pharmacy to buy more… because you're not taking your ADHD medication

send help
(or send meds, lmao)

i've been playing tons of BANGER (yandere) VNs lately, but the downside is that a lot of them are demos and now i've gotten invested in dozens of unfinished stories ;–;

irony: last year i had to go on sick leave because of mental illness, and this year i'm doing my thesis on a project inspired by this… which has now caused me to go on sick leave AGAIN

this is an endless cycle it seems

oop- guess who's on sick leave from school again because of mental health issues

We’re Seoul back 🇰🇷

NEW RHYTHM HEAVEN GAME LET'S GOOOOO!!!