Cashlin

Need some vegan mustache lotion for my chest hair

smokin blunts with a snabbit in a whimsical cloud

Yeah at that time I guess it did but I think shit like that is kind of destructive and keeps you entertaining shitty situations when you could educate yourself and escape. But also i guess most if us are always trapped in that

I recall You liked, rolling on molly? I seem to remember you liked doing that. I guess thats one thing we got *dooda doo da dooda doo doo guitar section*
(Sorry if i butched breakfast at tiffanys just riffing off the toppa da dome piece here)

Im finding it harder to feel like developing my old noise rap material is worth the time lr that i can do something comfortable and flexible with it, but i also have tons of material that should come out somewhere even if just as instrumentals maybe

Extra deliciois designer salt

NPR against sober driving

The jam band scene and rave scene are both similar as sort of predominantly white spaces that are generations of a very related counted culture movement that have both become very pedestrian and status quo post commercialization while making counter culture strong and accessible in american society

This made me think of the happy hardcore song

Yeah I feel way healthier now and like oh wow i was just loading my body up with toxins how long was that more debilitating than the relief it gave me was helping

I have to adapt more I dont think that I can be as well received by just purely expressing myself or doing stream of consciousness as I used to be able to

I like that “trippin“ became colloquialized so hard that you cna just say it and it just means youre going crazy its not even a direct reference to drugs anymore necessarily in casual speech, but as time forgets its peak will it again be more technically connected to its origin?

I think that its good that I drive myself to be sick of situations that feel the same repetitive and immobile, as much as its important to be patient and have solid traditional sensibilities and values it is also a huge trap to think thats the set of ideals that youre pursuing when it isnt

I repost this every time I see it

Its weird how my material from when I was like 21 was objectively at times definitely less inspired and less accessible or practical but also there are these brilliant moments of whimsical hyper abstract lyrical shit that im like wow i was in a zone that i cant access the same way right now then

Yeah they probably all joined christian churches lol

Like since I was a kid I think I wanted to be able to be closer to cities but as an adult theres a lot of hyper stimulating shit that could make it harder to grow and adapt, not to mention the field of silence in emptier areas just makes you sleep more deeply all the time kind of—its weird

You never know if your personal experiences are showing you facts about demographics that are real or are just affirming confirmation bias but medical care near cities compared to rural areas seems so much more accessible and actually decent and good although probably more claustrophobic

Well the warm flushing feeling can be really nice too

i used to read those, i met a kinda odd dude on a hiking trail in north carolina once who said that he used to read those, i could tell he just could tell the pattern on my clothes were festival fashion or that was so popular with youth back then and he invited me to his christian church ……..

I mean something about it was weirdly comfy to me maybe it was just the right level of stimmy for me maybe i have a mild masochist sensibility

This was ten years ago by now

Damn I need to focus though whats the more helpful thing to output into the world

When are we gonna get together and rewatch network 1975

Not sure if I have potential with these collages but maybe I should find more groups and websites about collage art and get more into it
I do find then kind of fun and the abundance of magazines and newspaper and shit makes it feel like youre spinning yarn from air a little

Zimmer frames in front of a concrete row house with green door, white windows.

#Galway

Yeah or that like i never actually drove my car off the road when i started having weird stress blood pressure episodes and that was all i could think of doing while driving home for awhile — i think that was in like 2015 maybe

I was so desperate to do something to get over the depression that I was giving myself borderline calcium poisoning and maybe almost overdosing on niacin

In 2017 I was smoking amanita muscaria with passionflower for the MAOI effects, I also had a phase where I would drink a gallon of milk and take like 8000mg of niacin so my whole body would get red on the skin fuzzy and scratchy feeling in this heated back porch area and watch tv