fan with envy

today was not a good day :(

am i..... psychic? i just got mine last night

IM excited for ur bday

i havent had my period since i stopped taking the pill like at the beginning of january so. while im like yay yippe no bleeding im also a little bit put off bc thats exactly how my health problems with my adrenal gland started last time :ponder:

PLS ERASE AUGUST 2023-DECEMBER 2024 FROM MY MINDDDDD

im in a period where i dont wake up to a message from my artists every day and i feel so empty without updates. SHOW ME HER

my bad yall i forgot to check in on here

and i still have to pay for him oh lord it never stops it never fucking stops

lethal dose locked and loaded bro. but no. bobbert just got here. i cant leave him alone. well my mama would probably care for him but like hes still so scared of everything and im his safe space i dont want to stress him out after he just accepted that he cane home

if it wasnt for this cat id have killed myself today

i wish there was a button thats like "you die but everyine in your life that you cherish will prosper" i would press that so fast

im in such a bad mood and im so sad all the time and i hate my life so fucking much and nothing is fun anymore and i just want to fucking die man

a close up of a brown dog 's face with its eyes closed . ALT: a close up of a brown dog 's face with its eyes closed .

when i remember that i wont turn 27

whatever i hope i never wake up again merry christmas or whatever

i should genuinel kill myself i ruin everything i touch i should never get anything that makes me happy becasze i will break it

(im also guilty of putting up 40000 walls)

hugging u. but also if you hide yourself youre doing yourself a disservice. even if your actions affect your friends lives you shouldnt have to pretend. real friends stick around. even if its negative its a an honor to be influenced by someone you care about . we thug it out together

checking in on tjis tl, are we still alive

genuinely tweaking out over my pedicurist getting me a christmas present like genuinely im so moved that someone random likes me enough to do that. i always feel like i can never open up to strangers because of my insane walls so for someone to like me regardless :(( enough to do this. im emo

the amt of shit ppl assume abt what i think is lowkey insane why are you writing fanfic rn where are you

people gotta stop headcanoning shit onto me LMAO it gets to a point. i cannot be experiencing the mischaracterization of fandom as a real person (this isnt abt my vt*ber persona this is about me like me the person me the oomf you all know)

crying over feeling lonely okok nini

:(

I MIGHTVE JUST SAVED MY ASS OH I AM SO LUCKY

with a nice design tho

its not even poor impulse control like im actively choosing to go balls to wall so i can go out with a bang. when i make it on the news at least my model will look cute. ppl will watch my vods like wow nice design

every time i start to feel bad that im spendinh so much money on vtubing life throws an insane curveball on me and makes me want to kill myswlf so hard that im like i might aswell blow all my money on this cos ill be gone by the time the consequences catch up to me

i think i fell off

today wasnt a good stream day

youre. so frickinh cute :( ily