mara

despite all doubts i have made a surprising amount of progress in my transition this year

apparently my laser got to a point where my facial hair is sparse enough i can go a day without shaving, without being super obvious (and it's easy to cover up)!

19th-century Taoist ink drawing showing the circulation of ch’i through the human body: https://publicdomainreview.org/collection/chart-of-the-inner-landscape-1886

"i am lowering all neural barricades: do with me as you must"

congratulations! that's a big step!

screenshot of bluesky post. text: "welcome to transgenderism! we have: dehumanization fantasy (animal) dehumanization fantasy (robot) dehumanization fantasy (corpse) dehumanization fantasy (divine psychosis) dehumanization fantasy (womanhood)"

girl somehow juggling all of these at the same time: but am i really trans tho?

divine psychosis (spiritual)
divine psychosis (time travel)
divine psychosis (quantum)

welcome to transgenderism! we have:

dehumanization fantasy (animal)
dehumanization fantasy (robot)
dehumanization fantasy (corpse)
dehumanization fantasy (divine psychosis)
dehumanization fantasy (womanhood)

thank you 💕

no human being wants to hold me
but i can be in the cold embrace of
machines

yea! it's so instinctive, completely about assumed social status i think?
kind of sociopathic, like the people that beat up homeless because they can get away with it

(they're also mistaken i probably make 10x as much as them but i don't care, i would never be shitty to someone because of that)

is this comphet

yeah... that's an option!
i would not want to bring a person into this world, but i believe we should care for those that already exist
if i were psychologically in a better place i might

i don't think before transition i had ever considered the reality of being an, even kind of ugly, woman as "guys tend to be kind to me, women mean to me"

but the number of times i've had snide remarks like this, totally dwarfs the number of times i've been called f&ggot or similar

whow a new insult🙂, some woman said out of nowhere "you cannot have children!" (in German)
yea im aware u know...not too interested in that particular means of production

also love how this hotel room is almost bigger than my entire apartment

at least some buildings are nice here

I didn’t transition into a woman, I dropped a mask.

The woman was there, poisoned and weak from her captivity.

I didn’t transition, I broke free.

is there anything i should really go see in Frankfurt? i'll be pretty close to the zoo so may go there

these resealable electronics bags are actually great

nah, this is only a train trip within Europe so there's like 0.01% chance anyone will look at my luggage

how do people travel with supplements and stuff, when the original container is too big?

it seems like a taking a nondescript bag of white powder with me might attract the wrong kind of attention

digital painting of hinako shimizu climbing into a bird cage held up by kotoyuki's hands. in the back the fox arm and bonesaw are displayed on the backdrop of a blood splatter.

caged bird #silenthillf #silenthill

shot day, time to stab myself with a needle
(does anyone find me annoying enough to do it for me 😅)

oh no looks like i had an opinion on the internet last night

sorry this won't happen again

billions upon billions of dollars invested in ai pornbots and it's all completely sexless. one trans hacker building and configuring a nogasm-powered pile of vibrators is more of a robotfucker than every grok user put together.

i agree in an ideal system it would not be the case. but as you say, we never had that anywhere

it's just that i've personally always been jealous at the informed consent system the US has in many states, even if you end up paying, at least you don't have to work around the system as well

when it's paid by the government system, it's also seen as a government decision whether you're allowed to transition, and when
and they have the incentive to bottleneck the number of trans people that make it, as much as possible

for example, here in the Netherlands it's extremely bad. waiting lists are more than two years, and there are some absurd requirements

so i have to be on DIY HRT. and i end up paying for everything myself anyway

"trans healthcare is bourgeois" is divisive nonsense, but it is true that in countries with more socialized healthcare there tends to be more gatekeeping and waiting for trans healthcare