Idgie Heather Ljunggren

I'd like to feel the spark again
Of joy without a reason
To wake up with no trace of pain
No matter changing seasons

To feel that nobody can take
That spark of joy away
To just feel pleased for the sake
Of living every day.

I will again, some day, I'm sure
But there's no fast paced cure.

Its a shame im not much of a smoker. I wonder what the Snus brand of choice is thats equivalent to Gula blend.

Premade, store bought meatballs, not homemade.
And in my case, veggie meatballs. 😉

Im slowly transforming in to what we in sweden call a "Gula blend morsa". To trl, put a cheap brand of cigarette together with a slang term for mum.

Its a single mom who's constantly tierd and who treats herself to a glass of cheap red while haphazardly making meatballs and macaroni for dinner.

I think I need to get back into reading more horror again. I think I've overdosed lighthearted romantic novels.

Its like drinking a whole bottle of wine by yourself, eventually you get an hangover when facing reality. 😅

Its better to have some lovehandles than being obsessed with how to tone your muscles. Some gymdudes look dead in the eyes. 😅

I'm usually not a big fan of gyms either, but im gonna try to find a routine that works this time. Really need exercise for building strength and for my mental health. 😅

😯wow!
Im impressed but it feels quite stressful to have gym taking up the whole livingroom. 😅

I live quite near and the gym is also near the trainstation where I commute every day, so my plan is to get some exercise in after work.

I did it! 😍
Worked out for 40 minutes and it was actually quite fun. Felt reasonably comfortable and I didn't felt that awkward.

Im going to the gym today for the first time in ages. Feel quite nervous about it. It's not so much the gym as it being a new place and I tend to get nervous about such silly things.

Do they have lockers? Do I need to bring my own padlock? Will I understand how to use the machines? 😂

Wish me luck!

Creature made up of dark paper clippings on a white background.

Maybe one of my favorite collages so far.

I call it "The monster is I"

Its in the middle of a large sheet of paper so I might do a few more creatures around it. Or I just leave it like it is.

This weekend turned out good.

Yesterday I took my ass out of the coach and went to see some local bands playing at a small one night festival in town. It was really fun, even if I felt a bit awkward first, being there by myself.

After doing that my mood lifted and today's been a good one too.

💜💜💜

Maybe you'reright.
It feels quite lonley though. I do have a few close friends who are always there for me. But my social life in general has shifted.

I'm working today.
Holding a crafting activity with kids at the library. We're going to fold paper Minecraft blocks and creatures.

Hopefully my face can manage to look a bit happier before the activity starts at 11. 😂

Today was also the day I realized that most of our mutual friends, where always just his friends who didn't really like me that much...

Only one of them has reached out to me after the breakup. The rest just jumped right in on telling him how cute he is with his new grlfriend....

Just sent in my divorce application.
My ex was supposed to do it, but he has postponed it several months now.

Don't really think its right that I had to take the step when it was he who left me, but couldn't stand the feeling of being in limbo anymore.

Really want to see @peacheschrist.com and Mink stole live. It might be possible for me to take some time off and go to either #Manchester, #Edinburgh or #Dublin in april to see the show.

Do I have any bluesky pals living near or in any of those cities who plan to go and see Idol worship?

A vinyl record player on a black table with Lisa Stansfields record Affection from 1989 beside it.

Vinyl with Lisa Stansfields Affection from 1989. A very pale Lisa on the cover, with closed eyes,wearing dark eye makeup, a black birthmark on the cheek and a black 80's style cap with a white cross. She's also wearing a black shirt with a white cross on the shoulder.

Listening to this classic record by #Lisastansfield makes me wanna go to a dark, grimy and cool club in Manchester, dance my ass of and the watch the sun rise as I smoke a cigarette.

Gonna try to have an anxiety free, cozy evening with myself.

The plan is to cook something nice for dinner, and read a good book. Maybe play some guitar or make another collage.

Im working a few hours tomorrow, 10 am-3 pm, but hopefully its going to be quite chill.

But if I do get an invitation I promise to take you and your cute flask with me. 😘

Unfortunately being "young" is not a guarantee for being invited to parties. I actually think u have been invited to more social gatherings than me the last years.😉

Oh, this makes me so happy!! 💋❤️🥰
He is a lucky man!

Oops.
Just sent to songs/voice samples to a Queer alternative rock band that are looking for another singer to join their band.

Maybe I've done a complete fool of myself, but at least I dared to dream. Always wanted to be in a band...

💜💜💜

I realized today that some troll accounts had put me on a few of these kinds of lists too. Blocked the accounts but I guess Im still on the lists. 😅

They're absolutely adorable!

Had a close friend over for som dinner and games. We played Scrabble and listened to music and had a nice cozy night. 💜

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