Chronic Illness and the Borderline Mind

Dealing with chronic illness is like:

It's fine.

It's fine.

It's fine.

Fuck this. Fuck that. Fuck you. Fuck my life. *goes apeshit*

It's fine.

Gave myself a quick haircut that wasn't the most even but was close enough lol. Gotta get rid of as much as I can off my neck for this summer!

New profile pic/header pic to show how I really feel. Credit of each pic unknown.

It's a "live laugh toaster bath" type of day🫠

The level I feel this ideation is scarely high. I keep seeing things about my issue causing the ideation as if the universe knows. So yeah..

You're a piece of shit
You're a burden
You're a disappointment
You're not going anywhere

What's your anxiety telling you today? Mines hating on me pretty hard!!!

Well you sure are hitting the mark!! 💜

Tbh I gotta love your arms. I have a thing for arms but only a very particular way. They look strong and protective yet soft and comforting lol.

This is a great idea!!

Gaslighting is the entire GOP playbook. From ‘biggest crowd ever’ to ‘normal tourist visit,’ they’re betting you’ll ignore reality. If we allow them to keep rewriting history, they’ll keep burning the truth to the ground.

I really appreciate you and the support you give to everyone!!💜💜

I can't wait to get @skydxddy.bsky.social album at the end of the month. Just from videos I have already memorized part of my new favorite song that I haven't even heard in full yet 😂 But it's an emotional song about having an ED but for me it fully feels like the anthen for how my life screwed up

Life's hard. I'm tired.

Ayyyyyye we did it!! Let's see if we can get to 700 followers!! If you like my page be sure to suggest it to others! (on Fb or BlueSky)

Thank you friend!🫂💜
My birthday does always make me feel like that too. This time it's probably the most intense it's ever been.

Awwww well thank yaa!! 🥰🥰

You re part of what makes it so cool!!🫂

I wish I could change one part of me and it breaks me I may need to give up because I don't see a way out.

I take that as a compliment, thank you!

And here is the only safe place (besides my group discord chat) to actually post about how I'm feeling and work through it.

30th birthday selfies from today. Shirt courtesy of my mom and of @steviesafespaces.com

So mentally I am so far from OK that I'm scared of myself at this point... so that's great for my 30th birthday...

What time do I dislike the most?
Laundry time🙄

Sent you a DM

If youd like to join the Chronic Illness and the Borderline Mind discord server comment below!
We do group art swaps every few months, we have dedicated channels to talk about everything from pain/Illness, neurospicyness, LGBT+, beauty, art and writing, and more to create a safe inclusive community!

USA mail finally caught up from the Canada Post strike and I got my art swap (in my CIBM discord server. Comment if interested)
But how beautiful is this!? The detail in the background is perfectly balanced with the butterfly and the cool lil bookmark with moths/butterflies drawn on it.
I love them!

Just throwing this back out there no pressure

Do you think we can get my count to 500 followers for my birthday on Sunday? 🥳

Only need 25 more people!! I'd really like to get there in time lol.😜

Not necessary but I'm just throwing it out there my p@yp@l is paypal.me/madi0406 if anyone wants to help me celebrate my 30th birthday on the January 12th.
Or Canadian Etransfer to mnwphotographyy@gmail.com