CoggsOfMerryweather

Sometimes I end up thinking about the old friendships I used to have, and I constantly have to remind myself that there's a reason why I'm not friends with those people anymore.
If they blow up at you because you're trying to tell them you're hurt by their words or actions, they're not your friends.

Heck yeah! That is such a drastic comparison, you've improved a lot! I feel like every artist at one point has gone through the big anime eyes phase XD

If you've read all this, I really, really appreciate that you took time out of your day to do so. You might just want drama, or you do actually care, but regardless thank you. I love all of you and I hope your days are better than mine are right now.
15/15

And all my friends have either moved away or backstabbed me/ran over me and treated me like shit.
I'm trying so so hard not to cry because I don't want my mom getting more upset than she already is right now. Everything just sucks.
14/?

I just want to hug someone and cry so, so bad and make them understand how I feel, but no one seems to understand. I just want someone to tell me it's gonna be okay and let me scream out into the open in the middle of nowhere. At what? God? I don't know. I just need help.
13/?

And I'm just a stupid 19 year old teenager in college. What the hell am I gonna do? I can't just leave. I can't just take everything with me. I have the birds to worry about too. I love them more than anyone or anything ever because they've been my escape from all this.
12/?

There's a reason I hate loud noises and yelling. It's behind generations of trauma and the cycle is still not broken, and if I ever have children (most likely won't), I want to break it. I want to get rid of this horrible pent up anger that everyone has to suffer through.
11/?

from him every time he blows up at me for stupid shit that I didn't even think would make a man pissed.
I just want to be free from the abuse. I'm so, so tired of being mentally unwell and unable to go 1 day without crying or feeling completely empty. I want out but I have nowhere to go.
10/?

I don't want to be like him. If I ever become him I will x myself I swear to God. It's to the point my anxiety is through the roof and I'm constantly under stress because it's like I'm forced to tiptoe around every action I do around him. And my poor mom is having to constantly defend me
9/?

He constantly berates my mom all the time. He wants her to keep working while she's got both chronic lymphedema in her legs and arthritis in her knees. He's pissed because she said she's quitting after Thanksgiving.
I just want to leave. I keep telling myself I want to go home, but I am home.
8/?

If I were ever given something like that, I'd straight up cry in front of everyone. He thinks it's a compliment and a joke, but he really doesn't seem to see it.
Right now he's putting the chair railing on my wall and he keeps yelling and screaming because the nailgun keeps skipping nails.
7/?

And I told him he says stuff that hurts my feelings all the time. Once he said I looked like a beached whale laying on the bed, and I STILL can't shake that off. His "friends" gave him a certificate that said "World's Largest Asshole" (he doesn't know that I know about this).
6/?

and I still think he's pissed off at me. Didn't tell me about our renaissance fair because I "wouldn't speak to him." I told him I didn't mean what I said and that I was sorry and he said "WELL, YOU DID!"
Meanwhile you NEVER hear the words "I'm sorry" come out of his mouth, even if he was dead.
5/?

He stayed mad at me for 2 days and kept calling me entitled. I just want a nice room so I feel at home. I don't even feel like I'm at home anymore. I feel like everything's my fault and if I hadn't had a sugar low the day we saw this damn house my mom wouldnt have been pressured to say yes to it
4/?

Mom started talking about how she'd love to have the house. Me being a depressed, entitled bitch I guess said that I hated our house and she agreed with me. We have no funds to buy another house oc, so we're stuck. Dad comes unglued. Starts saying "would it just be better if I FUCKING LEFT?"
3/?

I've been redoing my room, and the only one who can help me with all of this is my dad.
Started off ambitious, but then we went to an estate sale 2 weeks ago and the house was GORGEOUS. And ours is full of uneven floors and nothing is centered up.
2/?

I think I need to properly vent. A lotta personal shit's been happening as of late and it's really taking a toll on my mental health. I don't feel anything anymore when this stuff happens.
I try my best to be positive online so others don't have to hear me whining, but it's just gotten worse.
1/?

Not me tearing up at Scar's latest vlog. God him and Grian have a golden friendship. Everyone looked so kind to each other and you get that wholesome vibe.
Congrats to Pink Parrots and HC for winning the crown and award!!!

#HermitCraft #MCC #PinkParrots

Oh I LOVE seeing the insides of consoles. Like how did they figure out how to put all these parts together in one tiny little thing? Glad you were able to get your Switch battery replaced though!!

LMAO
Bluesky apparently hates tatas and abs :( Canista and Fred are too pretty/handsome for bsky

BRO BLUESKY LABELED THIS AS ADULT CONTENT COME ON!!!

Old art, depicting Canista touching a red glowing crystal. The shading is only an airbrush (ew).

New art, depicting Canista and Fredrick doing a dip pose. It is a sketch.

If you had told me 10 years ago that I would be able to draw this... I wouldn't have believed you.

It's honestly amazing. I haven't really realized how far I've gotten in my art journey. Yep, that's still Canista XD
She's changed a lot.

Old (left) VS New (right)

#Art #ArtProgress #ArtJourney #WIP

So they're dead.
Um... I didn't do it. I swear.

Also the ending made me sob like a baby

#Silksong #SilksongAct3 #SilksongAct3Spoilers #SilksongSpoilers #HollowknightSilksong #HollowknightSilksongSpoilers

They CLEARLY don't know your content lol

A street on a hill where people are in costume

Only four of three of the OCs are mine but this was so much fun....

(I'll try and tag everyone when it's not 11PM)

Context: They made everything in Pharloom SO MUCH WORSE by tricking me and doing a magic no-no.
YAY!

I'm going to kill EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THOSE DAMN SNAILS.

WHAT HAVE THEY DONE.

#Silksong #SilksongSpoilers #HollowKnight #HollowKnightSilksong #SilksongAct3 #SilksongAct3Spoilers

Pointcrow what have you done.

A man with gray and black skin and purple hair. He is slouched and holding up his hands in a clawing motion. He wears a black, tattered robe.

#Twilitober day 5: Shadow
@himelikestea.bsky.social's OC Seran! I love how creepy he can be >:)
Also lightened the image a bit bc it was too dark

#Twilitober2025 #Zelda #TP #TwilightPrincess #Twili #LoZ #TLoZ #TLoZTP #LoZTP #LegendOfZelda #TheLegendOfZelda #ZeldaOC #Art #DigitalArt #ClipStudio #CSP

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