milo 🍀

I'm already basically there except for a few of them but for those there's some legal stuff tying us together so that's always gonna be hard to manage 🫩 thank you for the support 🫂

I'm terrified of the backlash because there's so many of them and so much stuff everyone's tied up in but I am so so tired 😞

the urge to just go no contact with my entire family grows stronger and stronger by the day atp

bonus from the cute teapot shaped mirror at work

it's me

it's me but full body on the street

photocard of wyatt from ONF dressed syaoran from card captor sakura, in a kerokerokeroppi card holder

happy halloween from me but especially from syaoran wyatt

oh I mean yeah definitely, it's probably just a matter of timing for him and me wanting different stuff lol. again I like the unit just fine and I'm excited to see how they go about doing the reveal w him and stuff, but I'm greedy about my shunhoma drama lol

but maybe I just always expect too much lol

I'm ngl I like psypatra as a concept/lineup but I wish we got to spend a bit more time with just shunhoma in the fall out after dangerous gate

my lawyers will be in touch

nflying not playing video therapy on the tour but playing at some random festival OH I SEE HOW IT IS

that's so true actually 🙏❤️❗

Yes I'm 30 years old yes I made my favourite a necklace for his birthday and yes I'm unreasonably about him actually wearing + posting about it. what of it.

if u don't click the alt text THATS TJE NECKLACE I MADE HIM FOR HIS BIRTHDAY.

selfie of U-T wearing the necklace I made him :)

if you're looking for me today I'll just be over here face down on the floor

and tomorrow is the singles wth ben-k so ad good as that might be. another inconsequential L for U-T lol I hate it here

the things I want to say at this point would get me put on a watchlist

U-T poses in the ring at a Dragongate show with the Brave Gate title and defence certificate

U-T poses with the Brave Gate belt backstage at a Dragongate show

U-T poses with the Brave Gate belt in front of balloon stands backstage at a Dragongate show

U-T poses with the Brave Gate belt with Kzy and Flamita outside of a venue.

logging back in to say if el cielo isn't nishikawa i will buy a hat and eat it

Can't upload more than one video per post apparently But getting to finally hear Blue Moon live was a dream 😭💙💙💙

N.Flying live last night was everything I could have dreamed of and more, six years is way too long but they damn sure made up for it

hate how fucking embarrassed and full of shame and woe i feel every time but life is bleeding me fucking dry this month and im not sure how im gonna get through it between medical needs, house repairs (my boilers fucking leaking) and just like. having to live. so yeah.

everything is extremely fucking terrible, if anyone can afford to toss me a coin so i don't starve and/or go houseless my paypal is milomartinez695(@)gmail(.)com

unfortunately i don't have anything to provide in return but unending gratitude but like im really not doing good rn

them putting so much effort into this reign rn when U-T got basically nothing for his own after struggling for twelve fucking years makes me feel genuinely fucking insane. what was the reason to play in all our faces like that.

It could have just remained a beautiful dream instead of the fucking joke they made it out to be for him. Just dangled what his story could have been in front of us for nothing to come out of it.

sometimes I wish he'd never won the belt at least I wouldn't have had this stupid hope or this all consuming frustration

sorry u don't even have to read this I just . need to fucking get it off my chest or I'll explode I'll just go back to being quiet and try to be funny. lol

neg / very neg/ death tw

ever since mom died and my brother basically completely swindled me out of my half of the life insurance it's been impossible to survive. idek how much longer I can do it. rent is too high but there's no fucking else where to go. everything just keeps getting more expensive

neg / very neg/

whole family always complimenting me on how much weight I've lost since 2020 i wonder if they still would if they knew ive had regular periods of just skipping meals for weeks sometimes months on end. tho they always hated me being fat so yea maybe they would.

neg / very neg/ medical/

ive had a dead tooth that needs a prosthetic for years and an im pretty sure infected cyst on my back thas been there for like 2 years that I just can't do anything about it bc I can't advance that money and my insurance is shit and just getting worse thanks macron

neg / very neg/

every time i pick up more hours at work i just end up burning myself and being even more exhausted bc my brain is a piece of shit who can't handle it. and then my family will mock and berate me for not working more and rinse repeat.