milo 🍀

Can't upload more than one video per post apparently But getting to finally hear Blue Moon live was a dream 😭💙💙💙

N.Flying live last night was everything I could have dreamed of and more, six years is way too long but they damn sure made up for it

hate how fucking embarrassed and full of shame and woe i feel every time but life is bleeding me fucking dry this month and im not sure how im gonna get through it between medical needs, house repairs (my boilers fucking leaking) and just like. having to live. so yeah.

everything is extremely fucking terrible, if anyone can afford to toss me a coin so i don't starve and/or go houseless my paypal is milomartinez695(@)gmail(.)com

unfortunately i don't have anything to provide in return but unending gratitude but like im really not doing good rn

them putting so much effort into this reign rn when U-T got basically nothing for his own after struggling for twelve fucking years makes me feel genuinely fucking insane. what was the reason to play in all our faces like that.

It could have just remained a beautiful dream instead of the fucking joke they made it out to be for him. Just dangled what his story could have been in front of us for nothing to come out of it.

sometimes I wish he'd never won the belt at least I wouldn't have had this stupid hope or this all consuming frustration

sorry u don't even have to read this I just . need to fucking get it off my chest or I'll explode I'll just go back to being quiet and try to be funny. lol

neg / very neg/ death tw

ever since mom died and my brother basically completely swindled me out of my half of the life insurance it's been impossible to survive. idek how much longer I can do it. rent is too high but there's no fucking else where to go. everything just keeps getting more expensive

neg / very neg/

whole family always complimenting me on how much weight I've lost since 2020 i wonder if they still would if they knew ive had regular periods of just skipping meals for weeks sometimes months on end. tho they always hated me being fat so yea maybe they would.

neg / very neg/ medical/

ive had a dead tooth that needs a prosthetic for years and an im pretty sure infected cyst on my back thas been there for like 2 years that I just can't do anything about it bc I can't advance that money and my insurance is shit and just getting worse thanks macron

neg / very neg/

every time i pick up more hours at work i just end up burning myself and being even more exhausted bc my brain is a piece of shit who can't handle it. and then my family will mock and berate me for not working more and rinse repeat.

neg / very neg/

i seriously wouldn't wish being this poor and unstable on my worst enemy it's unbearable. i have no plans i can't ever look forward to anything no trips no get togethers no fun stuff while everyone around does . all i do is work the little i can and then go back to an uneasy sleep.

even if it does arrive at the office tomorrow he probably won't even get his mail til they're in Kobe over the weekend I need to CHILL (is chronically incapable of chilling)

need someone to come and take my phone away so i stop checking the tracking on U-T's letter every 15 minutes

“It’s ok to not be ok”

No it’s not this shit sucks

U-T with the Brave Gate Championship at the Kobe World 2025 press conference

U-T with the Brave Gate Championship

U-T posing with the Brave Gate Championship and his winner's certificate after making his first defense against Mochizuki Junior

U-T posing with the Brave Gate Championship and his winner's certificate after winning the belt

U-T poses with the Brave Gate title on Dragongate's Dead or Alive 2025 show

a photocard of U-T in summer clothes posing with the Brave Gate title

Natural Vibes pose in-ring. U-T has the Brave Gate belt while Kzy, SMJ and Flamita have the Triangle Gates

aerial shot of U-T holding the Brave Gate belt up to the camera

is this not enough ?! (I do have another cheki and another print above my desk oops)

photo of my shelf with U-T photo book, U-T print and U-T cheki

at what point do I have legitimacy to start a cult

U-T PHOTOBOOK U-T PHOTOBOOK U-T PHOTOBOOK

NOBODY FFFUCKING MOVE

If you’re calling for civility in a time when fascism is overtaking the country then you are on the side of the fascists

picture of the back of my Moon Vulcan tshirt

not even being funny does Anyone other than me remember this stable

help i cant stop rotating him

sent out U-T's birthday letter + gift earlier and I am Shitting Myself between worrying about it getting there and worrying about what he's gonna think like. i am an adult why is this making me nervous to the point of nausea 😭

match graphic for Yuma Anzai and Ryuki Honda vs Yuma Aoyagi and Naoya Nomura

I swear if y'all don't strap a GoPro to that 47 year old trainees head already

dcou and the dojo going to a TLD today and we don't get to see it 🫩🫩🫩

might have rotated him too hard

rotating angry pathetic minoura in my head like a rotisserie chicken