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i thought this scene was funny

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my umamusume hysteria is gone but here's this opekun i drew yesterday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! did you know? you will have a great birthday, now and forever

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thjs is crazy

his birthday was actually on the 6th. happy 42nd(?) (belated) birthday to my oc, link yang 🥹👴

#art

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my shaylas

here are my daughtersons: xue tian (XT) & bao gengmi (BGM).
basically: they're toxic doomed childhood friends(?) to ??? forever haunted yuri

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if i posted my ocs on here (this is technically my main and not an umamusume side) would you all run and never return

another point to make. earlier that day she told ayb to “face your troubles… as I face my reflection” (self-confrontation). her soliloquy, however, externalizes trouble into fate and dramaturgy. i think that contradiction implies that she needs performance to look in the mirror at all.

it can be an internal monologue spoken out loud so we can hear it or a speech from a character somehow aware of the audience. but in either case, it tends to bring the audience and the stage closer together, and they tend to be non-realist.

something i learned from class: A soliloquy is a speech that one character gives when no other character is present on the stage. you can interpret it in many different ways.

ope’s method of teaching the others to get into character for their play is by telling them not just to “act” their parts, but to immerse themselves in the characters (to speak, think, and practice as though they are those roles). hm, someone is projecting their own method here…

oh santa king. the sun king is lonely, and you, santa king, must shoulder his burden. but santa king, you’ll be the happiest to carry it, won’t you?

perhaps that’s why ope chose topro to say it to. she calls her the “axle” because she’s the steady center of their generation, the one who connects ayb, ope and doto, rivals who otherwise pull in different directions. opera o depends on topro’s presence to keep her from spinning into isolation.

that’s her paradox: she cannot reveal her heart without spectacle. which means even her most personal truths are trapped in performance. and yet, by saying them in front of topro (and the others), she creates the Possibility of being understood. to bridge the gap between the stage and the person.

when ope plays the Sun King but subtly admit how lonely her crown is, I think topro thought: “so even Opera O-chan feels that way…”

for me to enjoy opdt, i need them to both suffer. ope is too much for doto; doto is not enough for ope. ope thinks she’s giving doto a crown; doto feels like she’s been handed a guillotine. they adore each other as rivals but the way they express it makes them both miserable.