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Have to make my website today

I won’t be meeting any of my friends in the Philippines either. I’ve no time for myself since I have to take care of my grandma.

August my birth month too so ofc I’ll have another worst birthday.

+but esp people who are like my grandma TT. My mom already makes me crazy.

I like my grandma at times but I don’t like living in that house even before w/ my aunt.

I dread the day we go to the Philippines this August. I just dread it because it’s not a vacation. I have to take care of my grandma & Idk if I’ll have to do it alone. I’m sure I’ll be a maid/caregiver for more than a month in that haunted place & I’ll hate it.

I really can’t take care of people+

Di na nga nya ma-appreciate ang ginagawa ko pero a decade of all of this. I’m fcking sick of it. Kung di lng mga bwisit ang mga namumuno sa bansang ito, di ako magdadalawang isip na iwan siya

Nakakainis talaga ang mama ko. Sabi ko lng gusto kong magpahinga & bigla lng siyang mag-insulto na maginhawa raw buhay ko. My god, di niya alam kung gaano ka-busy ko every day. Na-ste-stress din ako but I never say it. She’s always like this. I hate her so fcking much a lot of times.

Late but I got a JP sunblock spray before & it’s good. I always recommend ones around spf50 with uva & uvb protection.

Spray sunblock?

Holding your hands on this one jdjdjdjsj I’ll definitely take note

How good is it to but from jetpens

Tbh I really dont see the reason to go out and do manicure/pedicure if you can do it yourself. & I’m not so high maintenance so I never do it.

My mom on the other hand wants to do it etc etc, so I just tag along w/ her if she wants me to. But like, I dont like coloring my nails other than colorless

+gives me a dopamine kick & I always love it when I finish what I always wanted to do, yk

+lines or words of text & then I do some calculation how long it’ll take me & where I should start. Then I make a checklist of step-by-step stuff.

I always crave for order when I work. If I don’t organize the things I do step-by-step, I’d easily meander & procrastinate. Checking off stuff really +

After working on this video for months from scripting to recording to editing & then sound designing later, I’ll definitely feel more accomplished & happier because I challenged myself & learned a lot along the way on my own process.

It’s like when translating. I start w/ scanning no. of cells or

+time retaining the aesthetic rules I set for myself is really always my way.

I think the thing about this video editing stuff that makes it hard is that I’m trying to create art & it’s hard because I’m not familiar w/ many things & just plunged myself into it like learning Japanese by going straight into reading novels lol

Pressuring myself to get better but at the same+

i wonder if maybe we should stop writing post-apocalyptic fiction just until we're sure that's not where rich people are getting their ideas

Watching Filter Cdrama & it’s a bit ridiculous but definitely has touching and lol moments

Definitely somewhat light-hearted

The pic i saw i forgot to put lol

I think its a pull/extendable type? Bvbvvb but im not sure lol

Pen pals…

Until when is enough tbh. I grew up where every time people come to us for money. Not even super rich. We just had enough but relatives come so entitled as tho we owe them anything.

It’s just tiring overall.

Something really tiring about extended relatives is that they call us for every money-related thing. Granted this time it’s for my mom’s cousin son who got shot but like… They run to us & expect every time.

I bought a variety of balls.

ボール各種を買ってもらいましたっ☆

Congrats!

I hate this country every day & I don’t like my home country that much either because relatives. I just think it sucks wherever rn

Of course we didnt catch the clinic today

+are I guess. We work on something like our lives depend on it.

+it rn ‘cause I’m still learning along the way how to edit stuff the way I want to. But once I finish, I’ll have a better grasp & presets so I really want to finish quicker in the future.

Every time I have a project, I get really uneasy when I don’t finish it immediately.It’s just the way creatives

I really just want to finish these two parts of the video. It took me more than a month to do analysis & script so I’m so impatient to finish it already before I move on to another script/project.

Thing is, I still have to add moving clips afterwards. So it’s really taking long & I’m just slow at+