Foxy Fig's on a Hiatus

honestly GOOD. all that tells me is that he's probably afraid of me like the insecure piece of shit he is. I hope I put the fear of Glob into his ass bc I hate his guts. hope everything he eats from now til his end gives him the runs

he's part of the reason I lost my old job as far as I'm concerned

LMFAO I love that this is the second time I've seen my ex coworker around this bus stop and this time he's on a bike and literally swerved into the oncoming lane of traffic & crossed the road to the sidewalk to avoid me. & I know he's got PTSD related to car crashes so that says something.

I'm starting to get PTSD from this doorbell I stg. probably just from him being a fucking asshole, but I hate the noises of them so much. it's obnoxious

I just don't understand why this weirdo WHO LIVES HERE and knows they don't typically lock the door has the bright idea to ring the doorbell multiple times, just bc his arms are full of groceries. ring it once or put something down on the chair outside for one second. it's really not that hard!! 😩😫

maybe I'll set a timer or alarm for Thursday about 2 hours before my shift so I can call out without getting written up as a little treat 🫣

I really need to go to bed I am way past my bedtime & I definitely can't afford to call out tomorrow in good conscience. I'm supposed to help them with a zoom call for stuff & I know for a fact she's not tech savvy enough to get that working on her own

either way, seeking reconnecting w/ my therapist as soon as humanely possible. wish me luck, as I've been playing phone tag with her forever now
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but I feel like regardless there's a lot of shit I gotta work on B4 I can get past this mental block or whatever it is

or maybe this is just a new season of my life and it's just okay for it to be different regardless of the circumstances. IDK I guess we'll see

not looking for advice or anything like that).

maybe it's the depression things getting more intense, maybe recently it's the fact that I've fallen off my HRT schedule for the past few months, maybe it's some PTSD shit from being houseless and the instability of all that. maybe it's all the above

I have a lot of respect for those that can just do it as a job & work through that, for me I was mostly just filming when horny & didn't set up specific times for that. maybe that wasn't smart & I should have just treated it more like a job (comments are off btw bc this is just me venting...

I feel like this is a huge change from how I used to be. I went from basically hypersexual to asexual in a very short time period. even by myself I just don't have a sex drive like I used to

& I know asexual workers exist & have to work regardless bc they gotta support themselves, but I just cannot

I hate to say it but I had to let my tryst profile expire bc I have zero drive to do SW still and I don't forsee that changing sadly. I'm glad I found a way to support myself without it, but I do miss the creative parts of it and being in touch with my sexuality more

this last one I really wanna keep the same savoriness, but maybe like half/one fourth less as spicy. I know I can handle this spice level now but I kinda wanna be able to bring some over to my client's house and share it without putting her in a fiery lava mouth time lol.

she does not do spicy much

this latest batch was a lot more spicy and savory than the first one I made B4 that. on batch 3 I'm gonna at least try to take some notes so I can try to keep track of what I do and do not like about it so I can really nail down my fave techniques and make it my own 😁💜

also much like the old school kimchi-making veterans, I don't usually follow a strict recipe. I just use a couple recipes as a guideline and then follow my heart on the measurements. which is fun bc it's always a little different, but it's also surprising bc it can get a little inconsistent. like..

I love for me bc yay I'm good at making it, but it also makes me sad that I wasted $7 on this small 16oz container when I could have doubled that money on the veggies and then made like at least 8 times that amount 😭

I hate to say it but I think I made better kimchi than the Korean food place I ordered from today.🫣🫢

it's just spicy? it's not bad, mind you, but it's also just not great. just meh. there's not any flavor DEPTH. like where is the umami or the sourness??

just wanna be home playing video games 🥲

she did chicken things again today 😭🤢 please GLOB NO

witnessed someone eat a chicken wing on the bus which is already diabolical behavior but then she also left her trash right on the seat. people fucking suuuck

I didnt have to stop bc she and her possible sibling sat next to me at the bus stop and I could literally smell the drink 😭

not a fan of them so it wasn't a good time

think I just witnessed a literal child drinking a monster energy drink 😵‍💫😬 like she couldn't be more than 10 years old this is fucking WEIRD. children do not need to drinking that shit 😱

or at the very least can they put his husband into their system and add him to my client list because if I'm going to do all this work I might as well get paid for it

and telling them I no longer can work for her because this is ridiculous. THIS IS HIS JOB, NOT MINE. HE IS HIS FATHER'S AIDE. WHY DOESN'T HE FUCKING ACT LIKE IT???

he knew SINCE FRIDAY AND LIKE 3 WEEKS B4 THAT HE HAD THIS DR. APPOINTMENT. I literally made calls all day on Fri from the beginning of the shift to the end of my shift to make sure he was taken care of. NO that's not in my client's plan of care list. I'm this close to calling the agency

I'm gonna have to do it again
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please STOP IT'S SO BAD

between this, my period being extra annoying & dealing with stress from their family drama bc her son is a giant POS who won't take care of his father properly, I wish I had woke up 2 hours B4 my shift to cancel

so yeah you bet ur sweet ass I scrubbed that sink and the whole surroundings area was wiped with disinfectant wipes afterwards bc CAN WE NOT?? for the love of Glob
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... unsafe to wash your chicken in water bc that whole area gets splashed w/ raw chicken juice particles & it's much better/safer to just pat it dry w/ a paper towel or clean/dry kitchen towel & then season as needed. IDC what anyone says, washing chicken is nasty & will get u sick eventually.

idk if it's a language barrier on that last one or what but regardless I can't rly tell a person how to prepare their food in their own kitchen and I know it's a culturally sensitive topic for some ppl, but I'm a science/facts first person & all evidence on this subject has shown that it's...

watched on in actual horror as my client washed her chicken in the sink & then proceeded to touch everything ever WITHOUT WASHING HER HANDS, I had to speak up and say something ATP bc please no. this lady has never heard or cross contamination in her life & whenever I bring it up she ignores me 😭