✨ Cal ✨

I passed out last time but at least had my mum there for support

But I'd have to travel to london and back by myself (an extra £60).. this is making me feel childish as fuck and I don't have much time to contemplate my decision uughhhhhh

£300 medical for a visa... I'm realising what's stopping me more than the price is the fact I've got to take a blood test and I'm so. petrified of needles it's making me rethink everything OTL

Mum also calling out how I "rushed into it without proper research" and how I have no support network in the uk so I'm alone all the time like. thanks. yeah. I. I know.

Girl this is gonna make me spiral and I still have to finish university

It's hard out here!! Sometimes I forget I have anxiety until I have to plan for things and then my brain is listing every possibility for things turning bad.

As well as apathetic parents who dont really want gaf but will still comment on how it's not a good idea really hits the brain bad OTL

I have money saved of course,, I can open coms and do adopts to help raise funds as well but growing up poor AF and having to spend so much just to apply (costing about £600+) for the possibility of getting in ages me about 80 years.... it's a lotta money going down the sink if it doesnt pull thru

Breathing normally as I add up the costs of what it'd take to get a work holiday visa for canada and ohohh it crunches the brain so bad.......

I don't know if anyone else gets discouraged when things cost a lot of money OTL even though that's just the way of the world!!

animate your ocs lore to fnaf songs who cares
this turned into perspective and 3d layers playground halfway through
#oc #mortalescapism

Hey.

Tell people when they do good job.

When you like the stuff they make.

When you like the characters they’ve created.

The stories they’ve told.

Nobody hears it as often as you think bc everyone thinks everyone hears it all the time.

Trust. They don’t.

Tell. Them.

PLLEAAAAAAAAASSESEEEE LOOK AT THIS CLEO COMMISSION I GOT FROM vgen.co/am_maple27

I did.. it… stayed up all night but it’s.. done… zzzz…

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he's so fucking hot does he know that? does he know?????

Story of my life right now... even when it's 4 days away my brain likes to immediately turn off

poor working class neurodivergent queer baddie who is now in student debt just wants to live peacefully with their partner and idk work at a coffee shop or do admin work.. It's not a big ask!!

I've emotionally become a NEET in recent years and I'm struggling on how to survive after all this is over

[cw dark thoughts]

I think. not expecting to live past 18 then 10 years later you're still sorta stuck in that time with a world that is so. so hostile.. and not looking to get any better any time soon it's so difficult to navigate.. I wanna hope!! I wanna be excited!! But how can I!!

ggouguhh small vent....

Feeling incredibly stuck atm in life and afraid of the change that is inevitably going to happen (finishing uni) and even though I'm slowly doing things to prepare myself I'm so-- afraid of the change LMFAO

thinking of therapy but it's £50 a session coughs wetly

Ib

Illustration of crusty white dogs

I’m a big fan of these guys (crusty white dog)

Maybe its just a me thing- but I would rather keep art to myself and show like.. 2-3 people that I know will be overjoyed than posting something and getting barely a response despite knowing a lot of people have seen it

anyway.. be excited to see your friends art it helps them more than you know.

my ass has gotten so bad at sharing art........ it's sorta a mix of things that's sorta shaped how i feel and act LMAO

The lack of excitement and engagement really does wear down on you, especially when you make things for others and get little in a response (not about anyone in particular)

#COMPLAININGWORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm happy to hear that you got an offer!! Fingers crossed that it all works out for you <33

A mix of being in a total freeze while being understimulated is eating me ALIVE like please. ... please i want to do something I have an essay deadline that I haven't even TOUCHED aARUGHHHHHH

I hate essays.... thought that making a video essay would be easier but it's still hard as balls... WHO ENJOYS THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to lock in... i need to lock in... i need to lock INNNNNNNNNNN

reincarnation line up
one when they are all the same age (18-20) and another when they are all the age they died (except cleo because. you know.. queen never die)

feat sam

did you guys know i lvoe cleo??? I lvoe cleo guys. Guys.. I really love cleo

yes

I know it’s the depression but i feel so sensitive to off vibes that have especially been in the air lately.. it’s not helping the need to go hermit mode

psa to pookies please. talk to me if you have an issue 😭😭else im not going to know or just think you dislike me and distance myself to be polite