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@disislost.bsky.social

32 She/they Adhd, autistic spectrum, severe depression & anxiety. Dysautonomia, long covid Disabled/chronic Heart of a goth, body of farm girl. I struggle to reach out first. Pfp: Picrew: "γ€γ€γ˜γƒ‘γƒΌγ‚«γƒΌΞ² ぀぀じ"

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Digital art of the vtuber dizzystargazers drawn like the feral love meme.

Digital art of the vtuber dizzystargazers drawn like the feral love meme.

me when I see an old man with Issues and Problems that I want to hunt for sport #ArtGazers #VTuber #VSky

🎨 ambi vgen.co/rose0famber

10.08.2025 23:04 β€” πŸ‘ 9    πŸ” 3    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

Glad you're okay.

10.08.2025 23:31 β€” πŸ‘ 2    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

I'm at $20.08 out of $100 for yesterday, if anyone could help me reach the new goal of $200 (yesterday's goal + today's) that'd help out a lot

10.08.2025 20:20 β€” πŸ‘ 33    πŸ” 19    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
a full color rendered illustration of a character with grey skin and white wings on their head. They have black hair with two long pieces that end in yellow and a yellow strand on top of their head. Their one visible eye is yellow with a slit pupil and black sclera. They're wearing a white cropped top with a yellow eye and white pants overtop which they have a long black jacket. They are holding a musket resting on their shoulder.

a full color rendered illustration of a character with grey skin and white wings on their head. They have black hair with two long pieces that end in yellow and a yellow strand on top of their head. Their one visible eye is yellow with a slit pupil and black sclera. They're wearing a white cropped top with a yellow eye and white pants overtop which they have a long black jacket. They are holding a musket resting on their shoulder.

gun o.o

skeb comm for @roadkillcatgirl.tgirl.gay ~ thank you so much >_<

10.08.2025 21:54 β€” πŸ‘ 10    πŸ” 6    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

AAAAAAAAAAA
#kannart

04.03.2025 15:31 β€” πŸ‘ 29    πŸ” 9    πŸ’¬ 3    πŸ“Œ 0

Take care of yourself. ^_^

10.08.2025 21:59 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
a holographic multimedia artpiece of a crow on black background. the crow's beak and visible eye (crow's right eye) have color changing effects as does the background - this effect is heat reactive.

roughly 8x11 inch on canvas

a holographic multimedia artpiece of a crow on black background. the crow's beak and visible eye (crow's right eye) have color changing effects as does the background - this effect is heat reactive. roughly 8x11 inch on canvas

Any crow enjoyers that want a holographic crow with color changing elements?

Not kidding, check this out

Asking $110 USD shipped (to Canada or US).

8 x 11 inch on canvas, 8/11 also just so happens to be my birthday. Can I rehome this for then, perhaps? Can ship Monday! #crow #corvid #MutualAid πŸ’•πŸ’Έ

10.08.2025 03:14 β€” πŸ‘ 6    πŸ” 6    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 1

Seeing an awful lot of people sick with Covid right now.

Many saying β€œCovid is back”.

It never left. That’s why some of us are still advocating for mitigations.

Every infection is a dice roll with disability.

Wear a mask. Clean the air. Stay home when sick.

10.08.2025 03:13 β€” πŸ‘ 4046    πŸ” 1188    πŸ’¬ 100    πŸ“Œ 56

Big thanks for having me in the tournament! It was a fun time and I'll be sure to come back with more dangerous Umas next time!
Also big shout outs to @hoshizoralone.bsky.social for drawing my ideal vision for Taiki Shuttle she's so perfect

10.08.2025 04:53 β€” πŸ‘ 414    πŸ” 171    πŸ’¬ 2    πŸ“Œ 1

Just "hangin' around"

10.08.2025 21:49 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
a drawing of an anthropomorphic fox cat person wearing a gothy outfit and roubd glasses

a drawing of an anthropomorphic fox cat person wearing a gothy outfit and roubd glasses

this is what happens if you put @mochizukivt.bsky.social and @qwarq.io in the contraption
#kannart

10.08.2025 20:47 β€” πŸ‘ 15    πŸ” 3    πŸ’¬ 3    πŸ“Œ 0

At least it wasnt a THREADRIPPER

10.08.2025 20:44 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

Happy birthday! Glad you're here. :)

10.08.2025 20:41 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
hands you a tardigrade
YouTube video by dizzystargazers hands you a tardigrade

woe tardigrade be upon ye
www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKnl...

10.08.2025 17:53 β€” πŸ‘ 4    πŸ” 3    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
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YuzuAdagioCh - Twitch 16-game Shufflestew! pencil. pencil never changes.

Shufflestew is on! One of these games is gonna get swapped out by MA incentives, but let's try to finish some the old fashioned way too!
www.twitch.tv/yuzuadagioch
#adaginfo

10.08.2025 18:04 β€” πŸ‘ 5    πŸ” 3    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
The turtle is Cameo from Gun x sword

The turtle is Cameo from Gun x sword

Goldshi

10.08.2025 15:59 β€” πŸ‘ 2360    πŸ” 708    πŸ’¬ 5    πŸ“Œ 0
CloverChibi

CloverChibi

Dot_lvl

Dot_lvl

Ilya Yenotka

Ilya Yenotka

Florian/Florimin

Florian/Florimin

Boop
#clovercrafts
#dot_png
#yenostration

10.08.2025 16:14 β€” πŸ‘ 45    πŸ” 10    πŸ’¬ 2    πŸ“Œ 0

How many clown cores and gigglehertz are in your goofy processor?

10.08.2025 16:05 β€” πŸ‘ 2    πŸ” 1    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
7th o in Spaghettio | #goddesscalyptra on #Twitch
YouTube video by Goddess Calyptra 7th o in Spaghettio | #goddesscalyptra on #Twitch

youtube.com/shorts/834bS...

10.08.2025 16:06 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 1    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
a digital sketch of the outline of a child contained within the outline of an adult. text reads: 
I'm an adult. I'm 25 years old. I have a job.
I pay rent and taxes. These are facts I don’t dispute.
On the outside at least, I am indistinguishable from other adults my age.

But none of that feels real. It's not me. It’s a shell.
Inside, I’m stuck, like something broke when I was young and I stopped developing properly.

a digital sketch of the outline of a child contained within the outline of an adult. text reads: I'm an adult. I'm 25 years old. I have a job. I pay rent and taxes. These are facts I don’t dispute. On the outside at least, I am indistinguishable from other adults my age. But none of that feels real. It's not me. It’s a shell. Inside, I’m stuck, like something broke when I was young and I stopped developing properly.

a digital sketch of a young girl using a computer to access a chatroom. From one side of the monitor is a speech bubble with a love heart and from the other is a speech bubble with a camera next to a question mark. Text reads:
Being taken advantage of online at that age by adults who should’ve known better is not a unique story.
Beyond being shown things I shouldn’t have seen and treated in ways I should not have been treated I will spare the details.

This is where I'm stuck, mentally and emotionally.
A childhood defined by sexualization.
I am both mature for my age and too young to know better.
I want things someone this young shouldn't want.

a digital sketch of a young girl using a computer to access a chatroom. From one side of the monitor is a speech bubble with a love heart and from the other is a speech bubble with a camera next to a question mark. Text reads: Being taken advantage of online at that age by adults who should’ve known better is not a unique story. Beyond being shown things I shouldn’t have seen and treated in ways I should not have been treated I will spare the details. This is where I'm stuck, mentally and emotionally. A childhood defined by sexualization. I am both mature for my age and too young to know better. I want things someone this young shouldn't want.

a digital sketch of a woman thinking, next to her is a thought bubble of herself as a child holding hands with a taller woman labelled +18 and the two are surrounded by love hearts. Text reads:
This is where I'm stuck, mentally and emotionally.
Physically I’m 25 but between the disorders and the trauma I’m perpetually stunted, emotionally 12 forever.
It’s the only way the world makes sense to me.

I’m an adult now. I can have sex and give consent.
But the only way I understand intimacy and sexuality and my place within all of it is still the same, I’m still a child interacting with adults. Its all I know.

a digital sketch of a woman thinking, next to her is a thought bubble of herself as a child holding hands with a taller woman labelled +18 and the two are surrounded by love hearts. Text reads: This is where I'm stuck, mentally and emotionally. Physically I’m 25 but between the disorders and the trauma I’m perpetually stunted, emotionally 12 forever. It’s the only way the world makes sense to me. I’m an adult now. I can have sex and give consent. But the only way I understand intimacy and sexuality and my place within all of it is still the same, I’m still a child interacting with adults. Its all I know.

a digital sketch of a distressed girl looking up. Above her are three images, one of a painting, one of an audio speaker and one of a page with writing on it, all three are crossed out with large X's.
Text reads:
I want to make art and tell stories that resonate with me. I want to share them with others who may relate or find comfort in them.
But it feels like I can’t. Being a victim doesn’t matter, I am at all times a single post away from being labelled a predator and told I deserve nothing less than death.
Its scary.

It feels like my only options are to pretend to be something I’m not or to stop trying to create.
I don’t know what to do about that.

a digital sketch of a distressed girl looking up. Above her are three images, one of a painting, one of an audio speaker and one of a page with writing on it, all three are crossed out with large X's. Text reads: I want to make art and tell stories that resonate with me. I want to share them with others who may relate or find comfort in them. But it feels like I can’t. Being a victim doesn’t matter, I am at all times a single post away from being labelled a predator and told I deserve nothing less than death. Its scary. It feels like my only options are to pretend to be something I’m not or to stop trying to create. I don’t know what to do about that.

cw: grooming, childhood trauma

impromptu vent art.

i'm still working on the other comic, this isn't that.

08.04.2025 05:36 β€” πŸ‘ 113    πŸ” 34    πŸ’¬ 2    πŸ“Œ 3

"Patron saint of filth" sounds like an amazing dark souls boss. Also, good morning! :)

10.08.2025 14:17 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0
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Remade Ivysaur! Not typo this time, yay! XD

#Ivysaur #Pokemon #PokΓ©mon #NamisKittymon

10.08.2025 13:46 β€” πŸ‘ 6    πŸ” 3    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 1

Just a few more days and maybe i can function normally again...

As of now i'm choking on water and cant taste or smell.

Ya never know how much you need parts of the body until they're gone(unavailable.) 😏

10.08.2025 14:15 β€” πŸ‘ 16    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 2    πŸ“Œ 0
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ClaudeTheRed - Twitch I hate leveling in World of Warcraft someone stop me plz - Pagle US - VTuber En/Es

Morning coffee and morning World of Warcraft because I hate my life and u have to suffer with me.
www.twitch.tv/claudethered

10.08.2025 13:53 β€” πŸ‘ 3    πŸ” 3    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 2

Pretty healthy for you. So im glad you enjoy it. :)

10.08.2025 14:07 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 1    πŸ“Œ 0

Im glad you have the space to unpack it. That type of trauma really holds on and digs in... thank you for sharing. And Jams, please take care of yourself. :)

10.08.2025 13:54 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0
Illustrated comic by Yeppenny Doodles of a cute bunny reluctant to rest, and a cat tucking the bunny into a blanket and reminding them that rest isn’t a reward but rather it is part of their progress.

Illustrated comic by Yeppenny Doodles of a cute bunny reluctant to rest, and a cat tucking the bunny into a blanket and reminding them that rest isn’t a reward but rather it is part of their progress.

You deserve rest πŸ’™ #art #comics

06.08.2025 21:03 β€” πŸ‘ 6548    πŸ” 2826    πŸ’¬ 23    πŸ“Œ 32

I hope it is a nice demon!

(In all seriousness i hope you are okay.)

10.08.2025 11:17 β€” πŸ‘ 1    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 2    πŸ“Œ 0

i've been cut out of people's lives for slight misunderstandings. a poorly phrased post, apologizing wrong/too late, being boring, never texting first, etc. never has it occurred to me to write an elaborate essay about how i'm the real victim because people don't want me around them

09.08.2025 16:51 β€” πŸ‘ 158    πŸ” 12    πŸ’¬ 4    πŸ“Œ 3

Nighty night Mx Fee. Sleep and rest well. :)

09.08.2025 23:58 β€” πŸ‘ 2    πŸ” 0    πŸ’¬ 0    πŸ“Œ 0

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