Rocka

That looks so beautiful!

like designing, baking, drafting and sewing, writing and sketching I just don't do anymore. Haven't for what feels like years now, and that realisation sucks.

Now I've acknowledged this, I hope I can gather the fortitude to work on this and be better. I don't want to stay a digital zombie.

Often just wasting away because I get stuck in a loop of content that really isn't that enjoyable or informative, it's just there and I get stuck.
My point was, referring to the video, that I really don't DO anything anymore. I *collect* things with the intention to do them, but things I used to do

Watching EposVox's video "Reverse the Brainrot", when they say, "We're not doers of things anymore, we're curators of objects." it really just strikes a chord with me.

I make no secret that with the rise of short-form content, I've struggled with doom scrolling and social media addiction.

I did it!! Got lost numerous times, but I did it. As someone who only leaves the house for responsibility reasons, not social or self-care reasons, this is a big deal to me XD

I need to drive an hour away from home to go to a music store and pick up a shoulder rest - The anxiety is through the roof for this excursion!

I am just itching for school holidays to come around so I can have some time to rest and recover from this cold I have.

I am struggling to stay focused and read the epically long high fantasy books I normally read at the moment. Can any mutuals recommend me some short sci-fi/fantasy novellas I could try? Looking for something like sub 200 pages.

I am just really looking forward to a weekend where I can be a potato and not have a thing on that I need to do

I looked them up and omg, they can't be serious can they?

My youngests' first ever friend birthday party went well yesterday I think.
Apart from managing a couple overwhelm and overstimulation moments for him, he had a great time overall.
Now I need to spend the rest of the week recovering from having twelve 10 year Olds running around my home 😅

I made the choice last night to drop from 2 units to 1
Between navigating work, organising assistance with my youngest new Autism diagnosis, & just life, I was just running myself into the ground again.
I do need to come to terms with the fact that I may be 40 by the time I finish my degree 😮‍💨

This is probably my anxiety talking because I've parent teacher interviews with my youngest's teacher tomorrow & I know it's going to go badly because he's refusing to do work because "it's too hard" (it's not) or he's using his AuDHD to explain not doing what he is capable of doing. 😮‍💨

I really overestimated my ability to juggle responsibilities. I keep dropping things cause everything is the same priority 😅
I'm umming and ahhing about dropping a unit at uni, despite working towards having to do teaching placements - will need to organise a 2nd car for when that happens too.

Annual leave too! I love my kids, but sometimes a weekend off being a mum would be nice.

With @talesoftheshire coming out this Wednesday for me, I'll be running to my lil hobbit hole to make it nice & cosy & wholesome. Then live the cottage core dream of growing food & flowers to decorate my hobbit space & cook for my hobbit friends.
It's going to be everything!🌻💖

Was browsing around online because I need to pick up a gift for a 2nd birthday this weekend, and I came across these!
They are so freaking cool, but already sold out 😭

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It's been 21 days since I was last LIVE. Juggling everything and burning out has been hard. But I can't give up on my space. So I'm going LIVE tonight from 8:30pm AEST (twitch.tv/rockareally). No expectations, no goals, just vibes while I ease back into streaming. Maybe I’ll see you there 💛

That's so sweet! Happy Birthday Vic!

I hope so :)

Bring Me The Horizon - Lo-files YouTube video by Bring Me The Horizon

I know what my background music for study today is. BMTH Lo-Fi!
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You're right, one thing at a time <3

My internal course transfer for Uni was approved!
Now I need to start thinking about placements and chat with my boss because I might have to quit my job in order to complete the placements 😔.
That's not triggering anxiety at all🙃

I'm getting back on top of putting my VODS up on YouTube. I just get so anxious putting anything out there, but the only way to get over that anxiety is to just do it and get out of my own way.

Sorry, I forgot to reply to this!
I guess it's just because there is a disconnection I have with the space now, and my isolation is just debilitating.
I know I'm burnt out. I thought I was coming out the other side of it (nope), but I just don't know how to recover. It's a time 😂

I think once I'm all settled in instrument lessons I'll look into pottery lessons.
I feel like I'm just falling off the live streaming space and just want to do everything to find joy and wonder.
This bitch is just getting old and ageing out of the space anyway.

It did arrive. I was supposed to have a lesson today, but unfortunately the teacher was I'll so we had to cancel this week and try again next week

I played Duck Detective: The Ghost of Glamping a little early last night & had a blast!

I got stuck on 1 clue, was thinking WAY too hard about it. Overall, Duck Detective is charming, punny, & a joy to experience!

I hope Happy Broccoli make more instalments for us to play, it's something special.

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Someone's house alarm has been going off since 10 am yesterday... I always thought that those alarms were tied to a security company that would come and turn it off after like 30 minutes or something.

I guess not.

As a result, I am not liable for the level of grump I am today.

I did it. I bought the violin. Now to anxiously await it's arrivel!