turble (shrimping it 🍤)

i did have a mild meltdown yesterday to my husband where i was like "what if i take this job and everyone hates me. what if i can't do it and they all yell at me" and he was like "what on earth are you talking about" and then it turned out i just hadn't eaten all day

n o t h e r a p y i w a n t s l e e p

it is. it can also get old REALLY fast depending on WHAT hes talking about and believe me he talks ALOT LOL

thinking abt how he'd go on loud "communism sucks, capitalism is great" tangents to his employees for the 60th time where they were held hostage to listen to his rants bc work was slow 😭

my father has said or done a lot of low key unhinged things some of which are Pretty Funny and others that are Less Funny

i get my "yap when im anxious" from my father i think. man who told me "yea if idk what im saying i just keep talking" which is diabolical now that i think about it

one day i will invest in a poipiku (i think i alreayd have a poi

man im so fucking cooked my tolerance and stamina levels for working are sooo fucked lmfao idk how im gunna survive and be independent in the future LMFAO

i could go back to working that many days if father asked me but working customer service job where you're on your feet alot of the time for 10 hour straight is........ my father is not a real person he doesn't take a single day off if he can help it.

chinese restaurant shifts are so fucked up and evil actually you just work the whole day for like 10 hrs straight. partial shifts are not a thing (at least how my father runs it) i used to do this what. 3-4 days a week? and it took me a month to adjust and not pass out immediately upon getting home

time to explode 💥💥💥

i think fucked up dynamics are really interesting to write. trying to decipher relationships between characters that you can't easily label. i could go on about it but i won't here HDJGS

i like making characters who are bad with boundaries on accident but now i have a character who is bad with boundaries on purpose and its fun to write but also Hey That's Scary (me shaking my head vigorously)

me shaking my head so you guys know i dont approve of jor's mentor

dumbest joke ive made for the sake of copium but if it work

fried shrimp be brave

yesss :)

anyone in the literal next hour who sees this do you want (ok there is a cw for it and its undertones of a mentor being weird toward their protege and mentions of human experiment and needle but it fades to black)

i wrote fucked up jor drabble that i kinda wanna share but also feel shell conches about. all the oomfies id throw this at no hesitation are sleep

10 hrs later wishing i had my earphones for the ride home UE

we have a 12pm catering order despite opening at 11:30 so we rlly shoulda woke up early and left the house but father forgor. and i did not remind him.

lost my earphones. not sure how considering the fact i rmb going to my room and not. leaving my fucking room with em. i rmb putting the earbuds back in the case and thats where my memory ends 😭

i would never survive a 9-5 😄

i un wanna go to work ww

i got anxiety bout the dumbest things evar

laughing to myself bc father agreed to let some guy sell antiques at the restaurant and the guy swung by today to put up signs. father passing by and reading "all sales are final. no refunds" before laughing to himself. few minutes later my coworker passes by and reads "all sales are final. no refun

orz man my anxiety. i was doing pretty good for the last two weeks i feel like im gunna pop again

post from my cat who refuses to stop walking all over my fucking keyboard

k k

a cartoon character says i love you too random citizen in front of the national museum ALT: a cartoon character says i love you too random citizen in front of the national museum

the thing i drew for yesterdays AP is so funny bc its big group hug with friends!! and then a random guy who said hi to me and gave onion boquet so i said fuck it yea why not ill include em

eee im gunna be rlly busy in the upcoming days but bc of the dopamine rush ive been thinking abt oc interactions again.. if anyone wants to have a casual gab abt oc stuff imm around