death

Selfhosting means having your power go out randomly at 7pm and it come back and jumpscare you awake at 11pm due to all your networking gear and servers powering on

Its so its easier to take sublingually and keep it under your tongue (I think..)

WWWWW

I love having this monstrosity on my desk

I wonder how silly I sound to people when I talk about wanting to go pro or becoming one of the best players in a game I play, I feel like I'm such an odd one out having a real actual goal like this for the age I'm at where others have already given up on the dream or probably think its childish

For realsies though I really do want to start putting time into fighting games again, community to awesome and games too fun for me to just completely ignore them, besides as long as I can keep my schedule consistent I'll always have time for them

Surely this will make me put more time into fight games clueless

Me battling in my mind trying to justify spending $220+ on a new pad even though I haven't tried improving at any fighting games for the past like 4 months and been playing rocket league non stop

Why must I be cursed with this obsession to be good at everything and the want to potentially be the best, why does mediocrity not satisfy me like others, why must I always be hungry to improve at these things constantly

The want to be good at two vastly different video game genres that ask for two completely different skill sets and equally large amounts of time

Another 8tb added to the gravestone

:3 :3 :3

Today is a good day :)

At least I'm not waiting as long this time because its on monday, I pray to whatever deity that may exist this appointment actually happens and doesn't get cancelled last minute 🙏

Pretty sure the front desk lady misgendered me too when she was asking someone a question about my appointment which is insane when not only are you scheduling my hrt appointment but you have my records where I said I was trans female T-T

Had a bad feeling last night, walk in and they cancelled my appointment due to the doctor not being in, I think I'm going to crash out

Anyways we are so back hrt on September 19th :3

Called them again the other day asking if I could join a wait list for cancelled appointments, but turns out they had an opening in 2 weeks that the person who schedule me in November likely ignored .-.

Crashing out they just rescheduled my hrt appointment that was this friday to November 5th because they "scheduled it wrong" wtf

SILKSONG TOMORROW !!!!!

9900x bundle for myself and also picked up a 9950x3d bundle my friend sent the money for, this was like the most perfectly aligned trip ever

So I went to microcenter

1700W* power supply btw (1000W + 700W)

3 different cards from 3 different vendors with 3 different drivers connected to 3 different displays

We just be doing shit at the student IT job

Ok I think its time to actually put something on the cdef.gay domain so it actually goes to something

Idk why but configuring VLANs and the firewall rules for them was so fun and awesome, seeing it all work too made me so happy even though it's so simple and the proof of my work is just numbers being changed 😭

I am burning money but I can't stop its too cool and fun

I love working IT because I get to find things like a synology nas called little nas x

Network card on left is 10gb that I bought, card on right is 2.5gb my friend gave me because she isnt using it, I took bracket off 2.5gb and put it on 10gb so it could fit in my case :p