Florian K Hart

For anyone who might be interested... I'm finally trying to remember that I actually have an Instagram and... you know... use it for things.

www.instagram.com/floriankhart/

Love this! Wanted to help this out a bit with Chaos Gays and Teatrays, but I've been so low-energy that I haven't had chance to do as much as I'd like!

<3 <3 <3 <3 ... Right in the shopping basket!

disabled people deserve to live fulfilling lives no matter their productivity to society

Someone tell me how this is so beautiful??? <3 Perfect energy

I have my eye on this!

This looks so cute!

OOOOOOOOOO YOU HAVE MY ATTENTION

Need life to stop being life right now but provided I can sort out my existence I'll put my little hat in the ring, this sounds fun! (And by fun, I mean probably devastating in parts but shh)

Awww BABY

<3 <3 <3

I'm still fistfighting the postal service to get a parcel to you. Pigeons are looking very ordered and sensible right about now. How does Lucas feel about birds? :P

Maybe a couple? Leave some to be claimed elsewhere :P

@_@

Literally always :P Especially if dotted. But I will always bow to a superior claim.

Aces in the wild!

Universe says 'I see you, rambling'.

And JUST as I was writing a thread about asexuality! Perfect timing!

:O It's there! In the WILD

Maybe, maybe, MAYBE.
... IS.
Why am I asexual? Who knows, maybe I annoyed the Fae. AM I asexual? Yes.

Speaking as a traumatised person, sometimes I feel like I will never know what ‘caused’ my asexuality. But I also feel that about a lot of other things in my life. I like rock music. Maybe that spoke to the pain in me at the time. I craft, maybe that could be distracting from the thoughts.

Something that you don’t owe an explanation for. And if your answer is ‘I’m asexual because of trauma’, you are not hurting the rest of us. You are allowed to exist, just like all of the people who are asexual for a million other reasons are allowed.

So I apply that to my fellow aces, too. Your asexuality is something that you claim for reasons you know. It might be that you DO feel asexual purely because of trauma. That it’s produced a sex repulsion and lack of interest. And that’s still okay to claim.

That sometimes things happen to people that change them, and that even if that is the case, they look at whether that’s healthy for them, and if it is, it doesn’t matter a damn thing what other people think of it.

And vice versa. I don’t have to change my inherent asexuality, either. What I DO have to do is accept a form of myself that understands that the world is far more complicated than black and white.

So actually, if sometimes I’m a little bit sexual in nature now, that’s okay too. And I don’t have to try and suffocate that as it builds or change that.

I have been told, again and again, that by rights, I should be a sexual being. So as a result, sometimes, I’ll admit, I am. And I’m in a camp where, as a human being, I believe I can’t delete my trauma from myself. I can probably never get back to who I would have been before it.

My understanding of my experience is the exact opposite. If you look at the timelines, if you look at the traumas involved and the way my mind, to this day, works, it’s clear that actually, my fleeting experiences of sexuality are the things that have been added, not the absence of them.

Everyone knows that trauma is one of the things regularly used against aces to claim that actually, they ARE ‘broken’. It’s not their ‘fault’, in this specific case, but it’s still a disordered version of who they were ‘meant’ to be, because someone stopped their ‘natural’ sexuality.

I am also a trauma survivor. WHAT trauma is my business, and I ask that people respect that when speculating or responding. But I have the diagnoses and various mental illnesses to prove it.