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well that was a fun four months of work but yeah i think im done. forget it lmfao

thought about deleting every word i've written again. no one is fucking reading all that

i feel there is no point in trying to contribute to a world that does not want me in it or see me as worth anything more than creating pretty pictures in silence. if even that.

i can't remember the last thing i did, said, or tried to do that didn't end in tears and more sleepless nights. why am i still here. genuinely. i dont feel that there's any point beyond some cosmic force getting to laugh at me every day.

should i include losing half my friends without a word a few weeks ago? being pissed on in public? going on month three with no physical cards because of bank issues? every attempt for connection that's gotten me abused, but never wanted? no one even answering me anymore? when do i just listen?

so at what point do you just say yeah fair enough and give up on it all btw

no one else seems to find the phrase # lukaalwaysloses very funny but they're not the ones who are getting hurt, harassed, beaten down, and abandoned every hour on the hour with something new, are they. i think it's hilarious. what else am i supposed to do but laugh anymore.

over one month i've gritted my teeth through living in a dangerous and disturbing situation so that i could get a cute apartment with a friend and today i learn i have been left completely on my own with the situation and just going to have to figure something out for myself

i feel as though i am truly not meant to be alive at this point and the universe is trying to find ways to correct this or get me to do it myself.

how it feels to be a Modern font user in a sea of Vampyre

the way i woke up to every name on my friends list w a cute lil new font. love. good feature

im like why does everything hurt. girl sit down for one day

tbh i’m sleepy

𝘸𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 // HELLRAISER (1987)

putting a limited poster run of these up for pre-order in the near future 👀

HAAAAAY HOW IS UR HALLOWEEN POOKIE…!!!!

HELPMENFHOLY SHIT

im not i just wanted to wear the 18+ band

happy halloween im explicit content

comic panel inside a 900 year old romanesque church. i Freaking guess. only in italy.

is anything ever enough . will they Ever be happy. omfg

i make fun of lawyer for saying italy does everything the best but he’s right about the trains. i cross that border and everything falls apart.

for all the slow italian rhetoric i will stand by the train system. i rolled up to the station and said when can i go to lucca and they said there’s one in 5mins for $10. and another every 20. thats peak.

i hope the girl who said “just don’t be stupid and you’ll be fine” is having a terrible night. i can still feel sweaty hands in my hair.

i made this to cope instead of breaking down. please laugh.

tbh i didn’t have my glasses on and this image is looking RATHER DIRE!!!!!! but i do agree. i think people get rly eager abt having educated themselves and learned stuff which is good!!! i’m very glad they can spot it. this is a very new development. but like u said. pls…. let west asians talk first

the pose is bad with just a visual tho. for sure.

without literally any context i don’t have anything to say about it. given their track record (stormblood :) ) it probably won’t be good. id personally rather they just didn’t after dawntrail but whatever i don’t pay them anymore

its literally just this picture?

(said lebanesely) do i even want to know.

im tired of crying when i see photos of myself and hiding from cameras. im sick of having no record of my life. im sick of my reflection changing violently between mirrors. i’m sick of being the designated ugly one left out and ignored, and im sick of being called catfish. but i dont want to change.