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I dream of having enough stability in our culture that anyone who wants to can pursue the arts, but the meaning comes from that pursuit, from translating human experiences through skills acquired over time. Art is labor, but it isn't just some commodity that can be pulped and reconstituted.

What are you carrying? For the sake of what? through such hard wind and light. — And you look out to me, and you say, “Only the same as everyone; your breath, your words, move with mine, under and over this glass; we who were born and lived on the living earth.”

Jean Valentine

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I release you I release you I release you I release you

Joy Harjo

And it took me until this very year to seriously consider (thank you to my very astute, very funny, very observant sweetheart) that I might in fact be smarter than them. Unbelievable sudden clarity. What a life

Eventually, gently debunking a random conservative chain mail is what got me disowned at 22. Was somehow shocked at the violence of that response too. Amusingly, I’ve since grown into the very thing they feared I was before I knew what that was or why they feared it: a gay socialist artist

The naïveté of this is mortifying in retrospect. But I could not draw a logical line from what I’d said to the incredible unified anger of their response, esp. accusations about thinking I was smarter than them: I was a terminally confused, closeted teen convinced I was the stupidest cretin on earth

I didn’t even begin to form a political identity until after college. Likely being on the autism spectrum made this worse: I thought I was being reassuring & helpful when I fact checked fake news stories, etc.—that it would make them feel better to learn the things they were scared of weren’t true

Ofc at 36 I now understand that they saw me as some insane liberal interlocutor bent on humiliating them, but as a kid I was just mystified by my inability to say anything, ever, w/o a dogpile ensuing. I was so sheltered & ignorant & dissociated from real life, I didn’t even know what a liberal was

Trying to read these emails has made me realize why my wealthy conservative family members used lose their minds about me, a thirteen-year-old, “talking down” to them if I replied to some deranged family-wide copy pasta email using so much as a single grammatically complete sentence

getting a text in the middle of the night and it's just my loathsome vizier saying "Your enemies lie in wait, my lord!!" what am I supposed to do with that. its four in the morning

Wave drawing in charcoal, inspired by Hamonshū

Wave drawing in charcoal, inspired by Hamonshū

Wave drawing in charcoal, inspired by Hamonshū

Wave drawing in charcoal, inspired by Hamonshū

Little charcoal drawings, after Hamonshū.

The future of our democracy is in the hands of people who literally think superhero movies are real

I've built a socioeconomic system that depends on everyone to do useful work and act ethically except the people at the top, who get unimaginable rewards for being antisocial frauds and criminals. And I think it will stand the test of time

If you’re in a creative field and you don’t lift up the work of your peers, you can’t expect people to care about your stuff

Obstacle This body, still walking. The wind must go around it.

Monday with Jane Hirshfield

this is your annual reminder to please take off your hetero-imitative frogskin and dance to a lesbian/gay spirit

Imagine being so full of hate you need to pitch a national temper tantrum that will strip 13.9 million people of civil rights instead of quietly taking the L and living your own life

I’m not saying anything novel, but I wake up every morning, struck anew with the realization that the worst possible behaviors are incentivized, the virtues I uphold have no market value, the most tragicomically incompetent ppl are in charge, + we’re gleefully flooding ourselves with toxic sludge.

there are some buckaroos this upsets for whatever reason but honestly is it very cool to be earnest and love with your whole heart and dont know what to tell ya

really the only way to deal with chronic pain is to turn into a little bit of a hellraiser cenobite about it

It is really really sinking in for me the degree to which LLMs are the ultimate expression of right wing anti-intellectualism. Its proponents are literally mocking the idea that anyone would ever want to learn anything, know anything, develop any actual skill, or have a thought of their own.

I have never wished harm on another human—not even on my own abusers—the way I wish it on him. I want that man to suffer immeasurably, and I resent that he has provoked in me a feeling so deplorably base

about to try reaching heaven through violence. don't think anyone has attempted this yet. will report back.

this is to know, the name of yourself the one who has always, enures is always, has al and to know who you are and true im afraid to write these things down where come from from sayings of the dead fro the cliches of the everywhere oh white wisp of line in sky why and the trees next to space travel i am qualified to give you pain by telling the truth

Alice Notley. time to read everything

two pencil drawings of Lowly Worm being crucified. One has him curled into a rough cross shape, the other is just him on a plank of wood.

if you were to crucify Lowly Worm, would you do it like this or like this?

Fandom is rotten as a concept, man. I understand it helps a lot of people who struggle with socializing to find community, but I think it's pretty clear the end result is the very difficult to reverse enmeshment of individual identity with corporate property.

I think that maybe I will be a little surer of being a little nearer. That’s all. Eternity is in the understanding that that little is more than enough.

R. S. Thomas

I have ADHD in that I always need to be drinking the most delicious beverage of all time otherwise I start stimming in a publicly destructive manner