wusps

i kind of want 2 make my own server but im also so scared all the time ever

need to get back into my habit of trying one new thing each week so ill try something new at a coffee shop ☝️

i think ill try go journal tomorrow i havent done that in a while

i should be thankful probably that my brain only processes stress after the event is over but oh my god i hate experiencing all the emotions at once i feel viciously nauseous

god my brain feels like a puddle. like actual puddle of icecream in a tub in a hot car ohg my god.

my cough is finally clearing up oh my god. ohhhh my god i can finally hgopefully get a good nights sleep. please.e.

I SURVIVED THE TORTURE DIMENSION BITCH

ON THE GOOD NEWS SIDE: i have gone 2 hours without coughing

i think my lack of sleep has finally caught up to me its been an honor

nodding nodding i shall keep it in mind 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

however i have seen so many cute humidifiers i will jump on this excuse to buy one

im not completely sure if its the humidity? its not on rn and it hasnt been since i got back bc i havent been bothered to empty it but i do have a dehumidifier bc my room tends to get too high humidity

IT ALSO HYRTS TO SLEEP ONMY STOMACH

i think? ive reslised the cause ? of my coughing is thst my throat is just unbearably dry no matter what i drink or meds i throw at it

did youyu know that if u have a day where ur coughing so much you cant breathe jt may end up hurting muscles in ur stomach and make jt agonizing pain to cough or sneeze

yep thats right i am in unbearable pai n

here we go buddy here we go buddy here we go here we go buddy here we go

the coping technique in question being throwing myself into kirby lore

my therapist said she was really glad i found coping techniques that work for me which means im getting the best grade in therapy possible

im so glad my coughings died down i didnt know my stomach could be in such bad pain just from coughing

like thebest way to describe it is 5 year old wisp wakes up like a sleeper agent to make me unreasonably upset over inanimate objects and then goes back to bed

like this overwhelming urge to start bawling my eyes out but like. i dont feel sad?

one thing that really makes me sad are those battery powered animal plushies that walk n talk on their own whenever i hear or see them in a toy shop i always feel this distant overwhelming sadness

i hope tomorrow i can talk without spluttering because i reallyyyyyy dont want to miss another therapy session . on the other hand im going to be yapping so much maybe i should see if we can reschedule for the weekend instead

my nasty cough is finally starting to clear up unfortunatly the only cure has been to shut up for an entire day thjough its been kind of nice to have an excuse not to talk

im coughing so much im struggling to breathe... no cold meds i take is helping

i ❤️ my shitty immune system

i have not had a good nights rest in over a week idk how ive held onto my sanity for so long