Lily

Visit to the doctor went well - got a referral to a psychiatrist and two new meds for imsomnia (just doxepin and stronger melatonin)

doodle idk

#sefikura

I have a doc's appointment tomorrow and I get to tell her I'm doing worse than in the summer. Yay!

There was a time I was terrified of losing writing. Now I just... don't care. Probably bc deep down I knew this would happen eventually

I haven't opened my laptop in two or three days. Sometimes I open Ellipsus on my phone, read a little and then close it

I'm extremely salty Avowed isn't on PS5 but I hope it'll come in the future

But I want to have it ready immediately and I found it on sale so 🩷

Ordered Pillars of Eternity II even though I still haven't finished the first game 😎

Yeah lol fuck writing actually

For the first time in three years I'm actually considering of logging out of AO3 lol

Unfortunately I'm reaching a point where I just might stop writing bc I can't work through this (even though I try as hard as I can lol)

Still, this is very important to know!

But I'm just SICK and TIRED of being invisible

Still trying to tell myself kudos, bookmarks and comments aren't an indicator of how well I write

Living with chronic anxiety that never goes away is so exhausting and I'm so goddamn tired

#sefikura haven't drawn in ages because of work so here's a sketchy sketch, ref used

Still have a lot of side quests to go and the DLC, but so far I've loved it. Pretty as heck and once you get the hang of it, very enjoyable gameplay

I gave another shot to Pillars of Eternity and without even realizing it, I've breezed through the story and I'm at the end of Act II now 😂

The thing is, Iron Flame has a cracked spine. It was the only one in the shelf. I got a discount for it and everything. And still my brain is shaming me like "Why did you buy a book with a cracked spine??"

I just want my brain to leave me alone even for once 😭😭

I bought Iron Flame today so I can binge both that and Fourth Wing ehen I start reading

It was soooo good 🤤🩷

At an Italian restaurant with my bf 🥰🥰

I FINISHED LOVE PRETEND CHAPTER 14 FINALLY AAAH

#セフィクラ　ACｘＡＣ

I found that writing on my phone did help

I didn't manage to write much today but... even the little bit is good

I'm still not doing okay but good stories, good food and my friends keep me afloat 🥺🩷

Basically how I've been internalizing it lol

Love Pretend
#sefikura
chapter 8

🔗 archiveofourown.org/works/707298...

Fox’s wedding

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Never thought I'd see a smile like that on your face #sefikura