Jellsky

Patience is a virtue
And all know it true
Unless when the feeling
Is aimed back at you

I will do it soon and everything will work

I'd be all "I'm sorry but I need to take a break from streaming for a week" but, like, not sure anyone that somehow finds this message even knows I'm back to streaming lmao

I will be hot one day.

It's not working nothing is working my head refuses

Someone please see value in me, I just want what I make to be worth anything

You ever wake up and just kinda wish you didn't?

You only ever need to make a tree once

I stopped using youtube. It is now merely a tool to find tutorials whenever absolutely necessary, no longer a trap meant to keep me invested for hours. I feel kinda free

Working on cool minecraft stuff, it's gonna be actual peak

I don't want to draw, I don't want to study, I barely want to eat and honestly not sure if I even want to breathe rn

Literally how are you so adorable?

I am broken. It's ok. I need to be patient with myself for once. I can't expect myself to be back in my peak after months of not drawing

Time to be human for once, time to live

Every time I send a big batch of fanart to people, like for christmas n stuff, I just kinda disappear after. I wonder why. I think the attention kinda overwhelms me I guess?

I keep dreaming about her being back. Waking up is like a disappointing torture

I wonder what she had for breakfast today...

I looked at her account again. It's been silent for so long. Everything's been silent. I don't want to forget her but remembering hurts. I wish I at least knew if she's fine or even still alive

Sometimes I wish I could afford some unhealthy coping mechanisms. Why is alcoholism so expensive?

I hate cables, I despise cables, I am so close to finishing the PC and finally bringing it back to life but I forgot to put one annoying cable in one annoying place and now it's even more cable and more annoying and covered in fans and I hate everything stupid cables I despise cables with a passion🙂

Life is so short already and they still expect you to waste so much of it

She'll be here one day. She'll come to us. And she'll be happy.

Everything feels like work and when it doesn't I just feel guilty for doing it instead of working

What I love about procrastination is that sometimes I don't feel like doing something so much I manage to convince myself to do something else that I've been procrastinating on for months just to have an excuse

Idk, killing is a bit far. How about breaking a leg so you can't run from finishing it?

It feels strange to have a will to live while this tired. Usually by now I'd be overthinking my life choices and on the verge of tears, feeling completely drained and hopeless... Huh....

Sometimes I think about how my friend looked up autism symptoms one day and her first instinct was to ask me "Wait, are you autistic?"

I'll have to survive college at negative sleep, wish me luck

Well, now that I'm back to using social media after... idk not feeling like using it for half a year might as well share that I kinda made a simple rts game in 2 weeks and rolled high enough on charisma to gaslight my college into believing this was technically the assignment they asked me to do

Peak