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life update: someone confessed the day before my birthday and somehow, i seemed to have adopted a dog. other than that, it's getting bad again. somehow i keep thinking of ceasing to exist but, i told myself i could do it. i could be happy for once. and maybe, just maybe, it would stop hurting.

life update: two people confessed to me today, and for the past week, i've been getting mixed signals from two guys. that's already 4 people this month, i'm genuinely confused on what is happening.

oh!! one of the ppl i follow opened their piloting applications and i kinda want to apply since i used to do it before,,

note to self: finish school work later and focus on this side quest after HWKWHSJSISI

i need to find a job and fix my resume + portfolio. i badly wanna buy myself a good ssd and maybe even consider upgrading my pc T^T

it's not interesting but, it's part of life. i'm isolating myself again and i fear i have become a coward again at speaking out my mind. i'd rather disassociate than tell them i feel uncomfortable with them. i do admit i'm a jerk for doing so but, i think they will never understand. i know them...

on a side note, i should buy a digicam to take pictures of cats and maybe even bring a sketchbook sometimes to practice

i walked for an hour and a half today. it was around 10.9k steps and 8.369 km. i saw some cats and discovered some new stuff around my area. today was another step to learning to live again :>

my life stopped at 18... or so, i thought. yesterday, i felt the urge to suddenly experience life again. it was weird but, it was a nice kind of weird. i'm hoping it isn't just a one time thing so, i'm gonna start documenting interesting stuff in my life here on bluesky

I KNEW IT WOULD HAVE WENT THAT WAY BUT MY PHONE WON'T LET ME OPEN DISCORD 😭

oh right uhm, this is zhen/nox incase this seemed creepy to look at sobsbsgsjsgsjsgua

i could have said this on dc but if u want food, im offering to buy you some bb hope ur doin well </3