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someone asked to film me again the other day, i wonder if ive ever been posted somewhere . i wish i could find out . maybe one day my face will pop up on my own fyp and ill get jumpscared

my pigeon is loving my heated blanket he’s loafing against my leg , not allowed to move now

hoping that i’m recovering as the spring comes but im scared to have hope and im scared that i wont be physically/mentally in a better state in time to take care of and befriend this year’s waterfowl pairs and offspring . but its my biggest priority its so important to me

fuck you *eats your bay leaf*

i got things to help him too
hopefully we’ll both struggle a little less with the home

next month i wanna get a shower seat . i will be sensible and wait till next month ….

spent a lot of money, so i feel bad… but at the same time i ordered things that were needed and will help me function at home

a lot people in my comment section (tt) do NOT have reading comprehension

this is what every day after school felt like. the pure exhaustion and light headedness and the migraine aura from all the fluorescent lights and thinking too much. having to sleep as soon as i got home.

i’m so annoyed that my body won’t work and that i had to go home early and not do anything i wanted/needed to do

it feels so bad, nobody could function in this state . i think imma fall asleep now being outside was too much

evil body (cramps)

still not well rested

slept 9am to 2am 🫩

waking up feeling
like i haven’t been breathing, my lungs so air hungry

hmmm i think i have sleep apnea

got thru heavensward in a couple days go me

am i strong enough to resist the spicy ramen craving

i don’t wanna avoid gluten ihate ts i just want comfort ramen noodles or something fuck

i will never not be mad abt this. governments are like “why don’t young people wanna work anymore” when actually masses of young people are either DESPERATE for work OR cannot work because of an insane increase in health problems after covid

and how have i been basically bedbound since then (aside from the warmer months where i spend time with birds)

AND HOW HAVE WE FORGOTEN ABT COVID, IT PERMANENTLY RUINED MY LIFE AND FOR MILLIONS OF OTHERS TOO

how the fuck was 2020 6 years ago bro

i hope they have been eating well . not bread

why hasn’t my body been working for 2 months

pls im so sad about not seeing my birds i feel so ashamed

i’m so frustrated and impatient about my depressive episode/ flare up. i’m so sick of still being in it and not being able to take care of myself at all wtf when will it end ????

i really do not like being in a physical form. let me out

“average wait time: more than 30 minutes” and i need it for the main story 🫩 (ffxiv)

my pigeon is taking his first actual bath (instead of misting) aww i’m so glad he’s figured it out finally and is comfortable w it now

my hearts been racing. i am going to finally play halo

*breathes*

okay now i must chill the fuck out and stop thinking abt injustice or i WILL scream

we’ve made it to the news this year once before, i’m sure we can do it again on an even larger scale